[MewMew1996]

Hello , I have been dealing with intrusive thoughts directed towards my boyfriend/Baby's father i'm currently 30 weeks pregnant with a little girl and prior to pregnancy I have suffered with a extreme anxiety disorder and have recently started to deal with intrusive thoughts. The intrusive thoughts have always had me as their main target and usually they are along the lines of "Did i cheat on my bf?" , "Do I want to hurt my unborn child?" that type of thing but now the focus has shifted on to my significant other and i'm worried that I won't be able to allow my daughter and him to bond due to my irrational fears . I guess i should specify exactly what my fears are so you can get a better understanding of how they started. Basically I started watching a lot of Dr. Phil and Steve Wilkos just as a form of entertainment and usually the subject nature has to do with abuse and children being molested and a lot of the times its the parents who had involvement in these cases and usually one parent is in complete utter shock that the other could do such a thing , their response is always "I didn't think they were capable of that " and while watching this program their usually are a lot of warning signs that the husband/wife just missed or chose to ignore so now it has me constantly watching my boyfriend and the way he reacts and does things which I don't believe is fair to him. He's never been aggressive in the whole 3 years that we've been together and lived together he's never raised his voice at me once , he's much more patient than I am and he's great with animals {my cat adores him} . However he's never taken care of children or been around them long enough for me to be comfortable enough to see how he would react around them , he's grown around nothing but men which makes me even more nervous because we're having a little girl and a good chunk of the time these shows portray the pedophilia cases centered around little girls , I don't know why I would believe he would be capable of such a thing like being a pedophile , He's never done anything to make me believe he would do that ... why do I seem to have this preconceived notion that he will hurt her , I feel very resistant to let him touch my stomach or even discuss loving her because my mind is telling me that his intentions are not pure . I've discussed this with him on multiple occasions and he's always so supportive and tries to be as understanding as someone can but I can tell he's hurt that I can't trust him and why wouldn't he be? I can only imagine being at the other end of the spectrum and being accused of something so horrible by the person who claims to love you . Sometimes I feel so guilty that I just want to end our relationship it's not fair to him or our daughter I feel like I'm ruining their relationship before it's started ...I know my thoughts are not real but there's the other half of me that's leading me to believe its all a gut feeling . Are these common worries among others ? Please help me I don't want to lose the love of my life to my worries .