[MusicLover82]

I just wanted to check in because I've been struggling a lot lately with my OCD and I feel like the "veil has lifted." My OCD sometimes comes and goes with hormones, and I'm also bipolar, so my moods fluctuate because of that.

I recently was obsessing about my close friend. She is female (heterosexual married), and I am a heterosexual married woman, too. I've recently had HOCD where I question my sexuality and fear I might be bisexual, so obsessing about my close friend made things feel more scary. I believe that there would be nothing wrong with being bisexual mind you, OCD is often an irrational thing. So I was afraid I had a crush on her, or worse, had fallen in love with her.

I think what made the veil lift was that I used the CBT technique of stopping compulsions by quitting Facebook. I had been checking everything she liked or commented on my Facebook to see what she thought about what I posted. I was obsessing about whether or not she approved of what I posted or whether or not she liked me. I often questioned our friendship. It was ridiculous. Once I stopped that, the illusion of OCD lifted and now I feel like our friendship is back to normal and I have normal feelings about her, no more obsession.

I just wanted to share in case my story helps someone else.

[Skeezyks]

Thanks for sharing your experience!