[unnamedperson2]

My girlfriend and I (long distance) have a great, extremely close, loving relationship, and we've been going on for more than half a year now. She's incredibly patient and supportive of me and my problems, but my obsessions about our relationship are driving me insane. Ever since the start, I was consumed much of the time by thoughts concerning her emotional and sexual fidelity, and to even greater extent, thoughts about her someday losing interest in me and deciding she doesn't love me or want to be with me anymore. For example, whenever she wouldn't answer my texts for a bit, my mind would often leap to the worst conclusions, such as the conclusion that she was having sex with someone else or that she was secretly angry with me and didn't want to converse with me at all. Often I would get paranoid, even when she was answering me right away, that she was unhappy with me in some way or that she suddenly did not love me anymore or that she was falling in love with somebody else, or even that she hated me. Such would be and still is (to a lesser extent) triggered by the smallest of things - it's ridiculous. Thankfully she always had and always does try immensely to comfort me when I voice that i'm feeling insecure in such a way. But I would and do often only get more insecure and paranoid, sometimes leading to panic attacks. With that being said, recently, my obsessions - while still heavily focused upon insecurities already mentioned - have turned to obsessions about my emotional fidelity to her and about the strength and resiliency of my love for her. That started with a dream I had, where a girl who I had liked in a mild, shallow way someone kept gaining access to and joining our conversations and texting me personally. In the dream, I was absolutely uninterested in interacting with her except to get her out of our conversations and make her leave me alone - I remember my only words with her were texts where I said that my girlfriend was the only one I wanted forever, and went on to describe in detail how amazing and wonderful she is. Soon, I began to overthink and worry about possibly having feelings for this girl, which lead me to be unable to picture my girlfriend. Whenever I would try, that worthless waste of life would take her place, which led me to try desperately to simply imagine my girlfriend without the other girl stealing my mental spotlight because it made me feel so incredibly scared that I did indeed have feelings for this girl and made me also feel horribly guilty, despite the fact the images were utterly repulsive and disgusting. Later that day, I was able to mostly stop that from happening, but now whenever I try to imagine my girlfriend I imagine her with glasses (which the other girl wears) and it causes so most worry and anguish that I find myself wanting to scream and rip my own hair out. I fear that these imagings and the stress they cause will somehow lead me to love my girlfriend less, or that they will lead me to develop feelings for the other girl through some sort of displacement of affection, or that this will never change and may even get worse with a wider range and greater frequency of such and simmilar intrusive thoughts. As I type, I fear that by discussing this phenonma that i'm making have a stronger hold in my mind, thus leading it to be harder to stop thinking about those ****ing glasses and, by association, this other girl. It's only been going on for a few days but it makes me feel so horrible because god I just love who i'm with so so so much and I don't want that to change or for me to have feelings for anybody else. I understand this is all quite ridiculous but I just want it to stop because all this obession about all these different things is a hell. Can somebody offer some advice, or at least symphathy?