so,

I'd saved up loads of empty bottles (drink bottles), and put them in a box in the corner- just to sit their (one of my compulsions is to have mess and rubbish around me)

anyway, yesterday, someone came to deliver shopping to me, and they took the box away- the box with all the bottles i'd saved up (guess she thought it was rubbish)

and now, I don't have them around me and I feel quite agitated

I want to find her, drag her in to my room

Possible trigger:

and hold her down- maybe worse.

I am just so angry. so, so, so, angry. she deserves to be slappped about a bit.

I've fixed the problem.

purchased loads of bags of groceries so I can hold on to the empty bags