[Paddy9190]

I have OCD ritual and intrusive thoughts. Lately it is starting to get out of control. I am a young man and Coloradoan living in Taipei. I was so excited about things, things were looking up, and I was excited about life. Then I started to get intrusive thoughts in my head. Like once I starting getting excited about life, these thoughts start to over whelm me. Thoughts that start small, but get worse, then devolve to the point where I get to the point of suicide. These thoughts manifest themselves as thinking of things that are the worse case scenario, like being scared od changes in my frame of mind or being scared I am losing who I am. Then it gets worse, and I start thinking about things I know I could not live with myself if I did, nothing violent or crimes, or anything like that, but things I would never think about. And a weird cycle of think I had a desire to do one of these things, and finally the idea I can't live with myself for having these thoughts. It is such a weird system of thoughts, but it is quite scary. It feels like you are just holding onto sanity by a thread. In fact, that is how I feel now, and I feeling hopeless. Please help.

[Miss P]

I will never tell anyone the thoughts I have, oftentimes. What has helped me greatly, is practicing mindfulness. It's helped me realise we are neither our thoughts or feelings...I choose to believe that it's what we ARE, that best defines us.

I'm so sorry, I wish I could help, but I'm sending comfort n hoping it helps, just to know, your not alone....sorry for pain, Hon x

[Rive1976]

Mindfulness helps me too but I was told you arent supposed to do that. You are supposed to sit with the thought. Id go for what works.