[Aliyah]

I am looking for people who deal with Magical Thinking form of ocd, I know every form of ocd is basically the same driven by the fear. So, I am sure people having other manifestations of ocd can relate to what I feel.
At the bottom of OCD, is this utter helplessness we feel when the irrational fear gets too much that it takes away all our happiness and reduces us to mere slave of our mind.
I always look for people who can understand what its like to have ocd. Please message me if you'd like to talk.

[Aliyah]

Nobody! I find most of the times that there aren't many people that have magical thinking form of ocd. It makes difficult to find people who know what it's like to have this and how to deal with it. I always tell myself that it's the fear that is at the basis of all types of ocd. Unfortunately I have no access to a therapist. and nobody to talk to about ocd who knows what I am talking about.

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry you have not found the person you were looking for. Perhaps though if you keep posting, & replying to other members' posts, the member you're looking for may yet appear. I wish you well...

[Rive1976]

Could you explain it? Im not familar with that type.

[Aliyah]

Originally Posted by Skeezyks

I'm sorry you have not found the person you were looking for. Perhaps though if you keep posting, & replying to other members' posts, the member you're looking for may yet appear. I wish you well...

Thank you. I hope to find someone who understands.

[Aliyah]

Originally Posted by Dnester

Could you explain it? Im not familar with that type.

It's sort of linking unrelated incidents like for example , having a thought and feeling that just because thought came to my mind it means it's going to happen. This is the thing that I deal with. I have to perform ritual ( in my case physical ritual of touching water ) to prevent the thought from happening. It's weird but I indulge in such illogical behaviour and I can't stop.

[Rive1976]

Oh ok gotcha. I used to have to touch the nightstand or I thought my parents were going to die. So I understand. Id like to say my Ocd went away but it just changed themes.

[Jaredlu]

Never heard of that form of OCD, but I do some things that I think fit the description.

For me the only way to truly abolish ocd induced fear is through "higher power", i.e something that's above me, because if things rely on me, all the bad things will become real (in my head). I count everything - steps, clock ticks, number of times I touch something, even cars on the road. The count has to fall on "lucky numbers" and every person in my life has a number which corresponds to an emotion. And when I look at that person, I have to think of the number for good luck and protection. It sounds so crazy when I put it into writing...

[Aliyah]

Originally Posted by Dnester

Oh ok gotcha. I used to have to touch the nightstand or I thought my parents were going to die. So I understand. Id like to say my Ocd went away but it just changed themes.

It's sort of magical thinking I suppose, since it involve doing something to prevent something bad from happening. How did you stop doing it? Do you remember what you did to stop touching the nightstand?
Yeah, I feel OCD changes themes. I don't know what form you have now, but I hope you are doing well tackling it.

[Aliyah]

Originally Posted by Jaredlu

Never heard of that form of OCD, but I do some things that I think fit the description.

For me the only way to truly abolish ocd induced fear is through "higher power", i.e something that's above me, because if things rely on me, all the bad things will become real (in my head). I count everything - steps, clock ticks, number of times I touch something, even cars on the road. The count has to fall on "lucky numbers" and every person in my life has a number which corresponds to an emotion. And when I look at that person, I have to think of the number for good luck and protection. It sounds so crazy when I put it into writing...

Does it bother you? Like it interferes with your daily life. Counting does seem to take up a lot of time and it's tiring to count so many things.I have bad thoughts, like they pop up in my mind, and since those are horrible I have the ritual to touch water to prevent it from happening. To me what you describe does seem like magical thinking from what I have read about it , however it depends how much it effects you in your day to day life.

[Aliyah]

I can't do basic things without having bad thoughts and doing rituals. I guess I have become a total puppet in the hands of ocd. My fears are driving me to the extent of being my own worst enemy. I just don't want to live with this illness. To type this message I had to struggle so much and perform ritual to get rid of bad thoughts. I can't even live a normal life and do basic stuff, I am totally handicapped by my brain.

[ken9018]

I think I have might have the type of OCD you mentioned. I have plenty of rituals I do to keep bad things from happening,sometimes it does become unbearable.

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by Jaredlu

Never heard of that form of OCD, but I do some things that I think fit the description.

For me the only way to truly abolish ocd induced fear is through "higher power", i.e something that's above me, because if things rely on me, all the bad things will become real (in my head). I count everything - steps, clock ticks, number of times I touch something, even cars on the road. The count has to fall on "lucky numbers" and every person in my life has a number which corresponds to an emotion. And when I look at that person, I have to think of the number for good luck and protection. It sounds so crazy when I put it into writing...

I understand how hellish it feels to live with what you've described, because I do it, too. But you know what? You don't sound "crazy" - you sound imaginative and very intelligent. It is highly likely that your natural intelligence simply took a bit of a wrong turn with regard to neurochemistry.

[*Laurie*]

Thank you for this thread. I'm finding it very helpful.

[Aliyah]

I am still, struggling, I don't know when I will get better.

[Rive1976]

I didnt get over it. It just changed themes. Now its a little bit of everything. Religious, cleanliness, harm ocd, pedophilia ocd. I think my zoloft might help it some but not much and my Zoloft comes with some health risks. It makes my liver enzymes high and my tryglecerides high.

[LucyD]

After you explained it I realized I have that, too, plus other forms of OCD. I see things on tv and I think something like "if the next frame shows this __________ will happen to me next year or in 10 years." Is that what you mean? It gets aggravating and the meds I take do help me with it somewhat.

Originally Posted by Aliyah

I am looking for people who deal with Magical Thinking form of ocd, I know every form of ocd is basically the same driven by the fear. So, I am sure people having other manifestations of ocd can relate to what I feel.
At the bottom of OCD, is this utter helplessness we feel when the irrational fear gets too much that it takes away all our happiness and reduces us to mere slave of our mind.
I always look for people who can understand what its like to have ocd. Please message me if you'd like to talk.

here when ever you want to chat to someone

((((hugs))))

[zapatoes]

This sounds similar to a superstitious way of thinking. It reminds me of a movie about baseball players who do things for good luck to help them win a baseball game.

[PoetrynPaintings]

Originally Posted by Aliyah

I am looking for people who deal with Magical Thinking form of ocd, I know every form of ocd is basically the same driven by the fear. So, I am sure people having other manifestations of ocd can relate to what I feel.
At the bottom of OCD, is this utter helplessness we feel when the irrational fear gets too much that it takes away all our happiness and reduces us to mere slave of our mind.
I always look for people who can understand what its like to have ocd. Please message me if you'd like to talk.

Hi. I’m new here. I thought my OCD was limited to contamination but realize I have intrusive thoughts and magical thinking as well. I worked on those things so my OCD is grabbing at straws trying to get me to be worried and filled with fear, doubt, and guilt.