[ChrmdOne78]

I am 27year old female residing in the Chicago area. I had recently went back to school and have been taking a psychology class. Upon taking this class we had begun to talk about disorders. Mainly personality and mood disorders. I was very concerned with the section on borderline personality disorder. It seemed for years I kept thinking I was "Broken" Doing things that are "out of my control" I have a lot of the symptoms and even my husband has pleaded with me to seek help. I am tearing my life and my marriage apart slowly. It has gotten so much worse lately. It has come to the point where the old way I feel I can finally have peace is by committing suicide. I have seen many counselors but no on has yet to diagnose me. The last one, when I had brought up this disorder told me that he was not going to be quick to label me with this diagnoses because it is a big thing to have on file. All I want is help! I am not a bad person but lately I don't even know who I am anymore. I have created this fantasy world and I falling fast. Can you please tell me what I need to do to get out of this rut? I am sinking fast.

Regards,

Sheila

welcome to the forums and so sorry to hear whtat you are going through.......you need to get an appointment with a good therapist....a psychiatrist.......and let him decide about your diagnosis and give you some help.......finding answers to what is going on can be the key to putting everything back on course...your marriage and your life....good luck.and keep in touch with us.this is a great place to come for support

Sheila, i just replied to your other post.xoxoxo pat

[Wants2Fly]

Sheila, I agree about getting diagnosed by a professional. You know what they say about med students who happen to have the hypochondriac tendency -- whatever the class is studying is the disease they think they have that week.

I'm not saying that you are wrong or minimizing your diagnosis. You need support for your feelings that you are falling apart. The label for them isn't so important. the help is.

[Eva1nder]

Hi Sheila...and welcome

I'm sorry your going through such a stressful time.

I'm 34 years old and have been battling mental illness for many years. At one point I was told one thing...many years later was told another. A fears back I was told that I was BPD and I read a few books and it did fit. I came to terms with it. You have to meet certain criteria. There is a list, which if you look even on here in disorders it breaks it down in more simple terms.

Thing is I don't know that I was ready to see or accept this until now. I didn't want to see or think that I was sick prior to having my son.

I would have to imagine you are under a lot of stress with being in school etc. You took a psychology class and talking about mood disorders going through such stress going through depression you might have felt so down that you might begin to wonder do I have this, which is normal, but it's a good idea to reach out for some help.

This site is great for support, but another site that may be of some real help to you is www.nami.org You should be evaluated or possibly get into some therapy.

If you would like to talk or ask any questions.. private message me anytime.

Take good care.
Eva

[mortimer]

Nothing much for me to say, I guess. *hug* Take care of yourself. With BPD, some shrinks are really weird when it comes to it, so try to find someone who specializes in it if you keep getting the run around about it. Good luck.