[MINIME]

Since I have not been able to post in a while I wanted to update you guys on my life. The girls are doing well its been 9 years since adoption day and 11 years since I got the first one, (my neices). My nephew has been living with me for over one year and got his GED and is enrolled on college.
My ptsd is up and down but I an doing better. Therapy is helping and I am branching out my support to others and making good friends. EMDR is still super hard and we are going to cut back on it to 90 min a week instead of two hours. I am in the DBT class to help regulate emotions and it has its ups and downs.
The thing I have learned this last year is that being real in therapy no matter how much you dont want to say something is the best way. Saying how you feel what you think is important and feels bad sometimes but in the long run its been good. i have learned that I stay so busy during the day and do so well but once I lay down in bed and all my busyness goes away all the triggers of the day and all my fears come out and I feel afraid and sad and yucky. My reg therapist and I have talked about this and we decided that every night for a while when I lay down and all those feelings start I call her answering machine and say the opposite of what I am feeling. Like I say I am safe I can sleep no one will hurt me I am not responsable for my mothers terminal illness I am safe and when I wake up the safe healthy people I love that love me will still love me tomarrow. Little things like that. It has helped so much. I am getting used to saying these things and changing thought patterns in my brain and the anxiety at night has lessened. I have really good therapists and for that I am grateful.
I am also still going to church and my relationship with the Lord has grown so much and it energizes me and guides me and teaches me. We lost a member of our church to a hit and run and at his funeral last week I learned alot about a life well lived and loved and I see how I want my life to be, he was such an amazing man.
My special needs kitty died and I got a new cat and he is crazy. Our move to this big beautiful house is awesome and I hope and pray I can buy it one day. (any one know where I can get 225 thousand dollers let me know k? LOL)
Im glad I can respond alot more its so hard to do on a phone. I have kept up with all of u and have read your posts and shared in your struggles even if I have not responded.
love stephanie

[Naturefreak]

MINIME ,
I haven't had the pleasure of meeting you but I am happy to hear you are getting along well these days . Take care of yourself , your family and that crazy cat . I got a couple of grand in the bank but may need that for my dog's yearly checkup and nail clippings.
Lol .

[VickiesPath]

Soungs like you are doing lots of things that help keep your head on the right track. When my husband and I were going through a particularly rough time, we both kept Gratitude Journals. It helped tremendously. We both wrote 5 things every night that we were grateful for. It really cut down on our arguing and made it easier to go to bed without grumbling.

Kudos to you, Minime. Blessings, too. Oh, and that money thing. There's always the lottery.

[Sannah]

Mini, so good to hear from you!!! especially with such good news!!!

[phoenix7]

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I am so pleased to hear you are doing well - sorry i missed this thread grrrr - I can tell from what you've written and the way you've written it that youve grown so much

i am so happy for you and your family

Im sorry about your kitty - i lost gypsey too - its sad isnt it because they are a part of your families but as with your friend from church they are always alive in our memories and our hearts - (im glad you have a new kitty to share your love with.)

take care my friend P7