My mother has a deeply evil nature

No, not hitting..just verbal attacks, financial abuse of my disability as she arranged to be my payee as she reported I was too mental to handle my own money, always expressing the negative towards me, the latest is she found out my Dad would be moving away and she made up a story about Dad telling my evil step-sister before me just to hurt me, I launched into her, obviously hurt, she reported, 'well- I am just being chatty' Chatty my ***. She was trying to jab into me like she always does, is men like me, she reports I_ am stalking them and that's the only reason why. I do not stalk people she pulls this out of thin air, always reporting it's not true if someone likes me. She is sinister. I am good, good, too good hearted, and my Mom prays on this, evilly stepping into my emotions and using them against me, any info she gets from my doctor about anything negative she uses that against me too.

I had stopped talking to her for 7 months but felt guilty about it and let her back into my life with caution, making sure to NEVER EVER speak anything of value, never divulge anything at all, keeping all contact about the weather and superficial things what is the point of that degree of superficiality with your own mother for heaven's sakes?

Other who are mothers have never heard of such evilness against one's own flesh and blood, one's own kid.

I NEVER asked for this, nor need this, it just hurts too bad...

Good-bye mother this time for good, or shall I say good-bye 'IT-THING,' as I referred to her in my last post about her endeavors. What a shame.

Junerain Your mother sounds similiar to my own mother. I had to do the same thing you are doing, end the relationship. It took a long time, guilt caused me to start the relationship up again many times when I should not have done that. I ended up hurt every time.

Start advocating for yourself, stop her from being your payee or having any other influence in your life. If you need help with things, get people who you trust and feel supported by to help you.

I know how sad and painful it feels to end a relationship with your mother, but it sounds like you are doing the right thing for you.

(((Junerain)))
From what I know of you , you are a kind , caring , sincere person. You certainly don't deserve to be verbally abused . I don't care if she is your mother. You DO NOT need this.
Take care of yourself Junerain

My therapist says mothers do the most damage to their children .. (not all of course)because our mothers are supposed to protect us and nurture us ... I'[m so sorry your mother acts this way, I hear you. I didn't speak to mine until recently because of her hurtful ways, she's back in my life but i see her when I feel well enough and refuse to allow her to hurt me any more. Take care honey, you certainly do not deserve her harsh tongue .... it's so hard I know, it's natural to crave PROPER maternal love, sometimes it's not to be. Thinking of you, Kerry xx

((( HUGS )))

YOU must do what you NEED to do in order to survive -

((( HUGS )))

Your mom sounds like a toxic person. I would agree that not letting her continue doing that to you is the best thing, whether that means cutting off all contact or talking to her about nothing more than the weather.
Besides, you just DO NOT deserve to be treated that way, by anyone!

I'm so sorry you're having a horrible time with your mother ((Junerain)) I hope things get better for you.

Hi Junerain. I hear you about your mother. Sounds a lot like mine. I can't imagine what it must be like for you, with her being your payee. Is there anything you could do about that? Maybe call a couple of agencies that handle payee services? There are agencies where I live that provide payee services for free and that can switch over as your payee without your mother having any say in the matter.

Reading your post made my heart pound in my chest. Grrr. Mike

Hi Junerain.......

How much your relationship with your mother resounded with me......

My mother was physically, verbally and emotionally abusive towards me up until the age of 21......

And so I "divorced" her......for 10 years.....

I am not saying it is for everybody, but it worked for me and I could learn to forgive.

We are back in each others lives now for the last 5 years(I am 36) and it has its ups and downs......sometimes it lacks honesty and we do the dance of skirting around some issues......but we are getting there......

It is a question of safety.......be safe......and let no-one tell you otherwise.....if you need distance, then so be it.......just remember to love anyway.....do not lose love for self through this......you are very, very precious.....you are #1.

Take good care of self......there is only one Junerain.....

Big Hugs

Michah

I agree with Cypher and arrange for someone else, preferrably a neutral person to be your payee. I'm sorry your relationship is so strained. If she can't treat you respectfully then I agree you should take a break.

(((junerain))) keep your best health in the picture... allow only someone trusted and known to become your payee.... best always

((June)))))))))))))))) Im so sorry it was so hard with your mom.
I agree with ((nowheretorun))) always try to keep your health in mind if that means being distant from your Mom for now thats what you have to do for you.
((remember you matter )))))))))))))))) kind one

Parenting should require a licence. You seem like a good person. I am sorry your mom is so mean.

I think I was exaggerating here afraid to say.....she spoke of my step-sister but did not actually say 'Dad told her first' did not actually say that even Dad was moving...just that my brother and step-sister met to discuss 'things'

I have been under a lot of pressure with graduate school, it quite frankly terrifies me sometimes, feeling like I am not good enough for anything to good to ever, ever happen to me..

I apologize for the exaggeration that seemed to undertake my mind...my mother is not so bad, even.......she was my payee for some time do not know the truth about how that came to be may have exaggerated she claims they asked her to be, the disability office...some office...but she is not my payee anymore..therapist about to sign I was always capable of handling my own money...

I guess I make her the scapegoat, there seems to be no good reason why I was fired from 58 jobs........of course I guess something about me appeared different..yet this is not a good reason to be fired 58 times...and now, to face becoming a teacherheaven's sake, with the memory of how exactlt they fired me over and over.....haunting absolutely haunting...

My mother may not be able to express emotions, but I think she is decent. I am not being decent in exaggerating, just to numb my mind of my horrid, horrid past..............