[NoLeafClover]

I'm so tired of not fitting in any where I go. I don't fit in the "normal" world.When I go to support sites I don't fit in there either. I'm like a hopeless cause,a missfit. I've spent 10 years trying to make people understand me,and no one ever does. The void I feel is never satified for very long before it awakens again. And its an intolerable feeling,knowing that no matter how hard I try i will never be "cured" or understood,that I'd rather be a child then face reality and the real world. I'd spend my life in a psychward if I could. Meds don't work,can't afford them anyway,Therapy never got me anywhere. I just live in my head and wait and wait until I finaly fall asleep so I don't have to think anymore. Everyday is another struggle to get through and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of trying to do something that will never happen,I'm not getting better.

[Elysium]

(((NLC)))

What does getting better look like to you?

I can hear how hurt you are...and how exhausted you sound when you speak of being tired of everything.

I too am a bit of a misfit....always have been. Never included in anything, always alone, feel different from everyone everywhere and I constantly wonder why I was born onto this Earth if I am only going to be alone.

But one thing I am learning....

The world needs it's misfits...just as much as it needs anyone else. It takes all kinds to make this world go round and if everyone was the same...it would be a pretty boring place.

Lots of us feel like we don't fit. I know I do. And in this way we do fit. We fit in with a collective group of people who feel astray. We fit in...because we don't fit in.

I long to be understood by people as well. But it's getting to the point where I am asking myself why. Why does it matter if anyone else understands me? Right now, I would settle for just understanding myself.

Even if everyone understood you, there would still be no guarantee that you would feel less alone. Kind of like being in a crowded room, at a party, and feeling like you are the only one that knows your there!!

You do fit....just not conventionally. And as painful as this can be...there's nothing wrong with that.

You matter!! You matter as much as anyone and everyone else does.

So what if people don't understand you. They don't have to live in your skin.

Keep your head up!!!

If there was one simple thing you could do today, Theresa, to make today a better day for you, what would it be?

[Junerain]

I NEVER fit in anywhere AT ALL!!! FIRED from 58 jobs, even!!!

I really truly feel for you

What I wanted to say, is that PC is different from the rest of the world.....it actually ACCEPTED me believe it or not

It has a heart, beating with the love of its members we are the most understanding bunch EVER I feel,

Your replies already show understanding..

I see you fitting in here, over the years, maybe posting poems in the creative corner, helping others, posting videos, socializing about things, I love you already!!!

Believe me, where the rest of the world stops....PC is just beginning