[mrb020377]

i read the post that ryan made about wanting to get banned. I read his comment about how there are two sides to every person and how we didnt know him as well as well thought we did. I agree. We as humans sometimes only show what we think others will accept. I am not going to get on a soap box or anything, but I do have some comments to make.

When I came here to this forum, I was at a loss. I was confused and felt as if i was dieing.... I went into the caht room and that is where i met ryan and jan for the first time. THey seemed like really cool people, and personally i still feel that way. Jan is really cool to talk to. In asking how to make that first step in posting, it was ryan that said to take my time. It was also Ryan that said this place was a wonderful place with many loving and caring people. So I made my post. Ryan was the first to respond....with very kind words that made me feel for the first time in my life that someone understood what I was dealing with. I didnt feel so worthless and weird anymore.

So now to see him saying that this place is full of cry babies including his self, hurts. I know that he is having a hard time, but it still hurts. Here I thought that this place was a good place and that people actually cared that you were hurting inside.......Why wouldn't i think that..... the first person I met told me that.....

So Ryan I am sorry if we don't know you like we thought we did..... we know the You that you wanted us to know......

I still like this forum and yes the people here are great!!!! I will keep coming here!

Ryan, I agree with the above post. I don't like being called a "cry baby".....

I have one question for you, are you off your meds? And if you are, don't you think it's high time that you start taking them again?

Fondly, Pat

I know you're all wondering what's going on and I'm about to explain as best I can.

Ry