[CombatBaby135]

I don't know whether this goes in here or not, but I'm going to try anyway...

Ok well this has been happening since I've been around 6-7 years old and it’s just began to become worse... I don’t know whether this is a phobia or anything else but it’s quite irritating...

Here’s the problem... When someone gets close, both physically and mentally, I push away... I never realized it until this kid pointed it out... This kid and I were classmates, and spoken irregularly... Last year or so he began to become my friend, and become closer to me... When e hung out about everyday and were considered best friends, he began to touch me and try to make me hug him everyday... I wasn’t attracted to him in anyway, and knew I never was going to be but he just kept touching me... I knew he was going ask me out soon, and trying to be nice I was going to reject him nicely... But once he confessed to me, I instantly hated him... When he tried to get near me or even touch me, I would hatefully say 'don’t touch me... And now I realize I do that to everyone I meet... I like them one moment, and once they touch me I instantly hate them...

Then soon after that incident I noticed myself freaking out every time my mom touched me or if she tried to hold my hand I would reject immediately.. The only person I let touch me is my dad, and someone I like but that never happens... My dad will caress my head, or hug me and I love it... But when someone else touches me I freak out... And then again I mentally block them out... I can mentally block everyone, except my mom... But I do push her away physically... I don’t understand this... And it makes me sad, and it’s a painful process when it happens...

Any thought..?

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Combatbaby,

Sounds to me as if you have a phobia about being touched but that is just an opinion.

I don't like people being too close to me and if anyone touches my pendant or bracelets and rings, I freak and tell them off very curtly; then I have to take them all off and clean them. This developed after I was diagnosed with agraphobia, and since then I have developed polyphobia. At one stage I couldn't put my hands in nonfresh water in the kitchen sink, and so many other things.

I suggest you see a therapist or pdoc to find out what it is. It's fine to get ideas from here but it's best to get an official diagnosis.

Rhiannon

[Perna]

I think most people who haven't been raised with a lot of touching in their families or had "bad" touching don't like to be touched. Sounds like you have gotten in the habit of rejecting it and that has you going in the more rejecting direction. If you want to change that, then start with practicing with your Mom and you, yourself, touch other people (appropriately), occasionally, etc. Anyone you can give a back rub to, or get one from

[CombatBaby135]

Ahh thank you both for responding, and I am very appreciative... I am going to the doctor in a few months so I am going to ask them.. and this week I actually let my mom touch me, which made me freak out, but I still did it ^^ Thank you again..

[Princess_Obsidian]

Greetings,

If it is truly something that is bothering you, perhaps a visit to a medical professional could give you the efficient answer/solution you seek.

Have a good one.