[Sanada]

For years and years my T's have tried to define me/us. Now i've come to P.C, i have more of an idea of my Diagnosis. I've realised that my T's have (along with friends), had me/us defined all along; only i/us did not realise. I have been behaving in a lot of different ways, and all this did to do was cause confusion and exsaperate inner confusion. I know who "i" am, where i come from, but now i realise what "we" are "i" see better. I have obvious obssesions, friends saw that, my T saw that, i was told but my ears were closed to those who i/we saw as the enemy (enemy is to strong a word), i would say now that we saw "now" with hindsight, that my "enemies" were our loved ones. I have SI/SH issues (i'm an adult though, so it is something i have to hide well), abuse issues which i do not hide, substance abuse i/we think now was brought on by confusion, depession from finding my best buddy who commited sui in our home (i found him alive, he died while i waited for the ambulances to arrive, all i could do was hold his hand till he died, "but", he passed me something that day). Now, after years, the inner persona is waking and seeing its self. I/we are here, so many voices inside telling me what to do. Look in the mirror, what do "we" see. I see someting that has grown into something thats woken up to itself (and i'm not shamed of my reflection). Therfore i can now deal with the "control" (not the cure), there is no cure for my dissorders. Obsessions to the "n"th degree. Within there are things that cannot be labeled, cannot be truly understood. I also see a priest too, when i can. To try to get a different question that i can formulate, so we(inside) can understand can get closer to an ansewer. We are no longer afraid of our dissorder, thanks to P.C. "O.k", now where is the "therapy and support", now "i" see, "we", can control our dissorders, not make them just dissapear, it does not work like that. I think that P.C has done more for my mental health than any "T" has ever done in years. So i beg the question, P.C, Support or Therapy (or both)...x thanx p.c.. loves..Sanada.x

[Leed]

I think you should definitely stay in therapy, but stay here too. This is a great place for support and in some ways it does help you see things that perhaps therapy does not. That's cause so many here have traveled the same road.

So having both therapy and PC is ideal. Sounds like you're making great progress!! Wonderful !! God bless & keep us posted. Hugs, Lee

[turquoisesea]

((((((Sanada)))))))) I've felt that PC has done as much as any T in the past. However then I found a T that really works for me and it's great having both. Thing is, PC is free, and here always but the T is trained and paid to give you the best care they can. You've clearly been through a LOT, and if you've given this T a good chance, maybe its' time to try another? I'm personally really glad I kept trying therapy because it has helped me - it just took time (more time than it took PC).

*hugs*

[Sanada]

Thanx guys (turquissesea). I have no intention of leaving my T. My T has sugessted actualy that she may not be qualified(yet) to deal with my case. She can always deal with my SI/SH, she specializes in that feild. She sugessted to me erlier this year that i see a higher power in pyschotherapy. I did see the head pyschotheapist of the local; hospital once. She interveiwed me for hours then said "get out your more sane than i". That kinda threw me out for a bit, made me go home and think. What this "cheif" did was to make things worse in my veiw. To be not taken seriously is a dangerious game. I thought too much. Its ok though, it made me what i/we are today more head strong (in the pride of not being ashamed)of just what one is.xxxxxxx