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I don't feel here anymore.
I had a lot of problems in the past but everything just changed. I'd done so well. But the past two weeks or so, I have just been in a terrible mood. I'm mean to everyone, I'm sad, I don't talk much. I just sit in my room and play video games. I don't even feel alive.
I don't remember much, like I was driving to work twenty minutes away and when I got there I barely even remembered driving there. It turned out I didn't even work that day. I thought it was that day but it was actually the next. Then on the way home I had my eyes closed half the time. Like I knew i could die but I didn't care really and actually almost got in a wreck. I really don't know.
I can't bring myself to tell my parents. I've been such an *** to them. But I've been doing so good, I don't want them to get mad.