[mala]

Follwing my previous post I find that I need to find out what this evil is in my brain. I looked at the priest yesterday the same way I looked at my dad before he died, am I being too open yes but I need to have an opinion on this. I will be discussing this with my closest friend but I thought I should let other people know. I reflected and meditated and I have found that it resembles an evil tadpole in the brain. I know lots of people are like that (probably most cheif executives!) but I had no idea that I was like that. I actually thought I was becoming better.
Any thoughts
mala
ps this is not a joke

Could you describe this evil a bit more in depth?

[lynn P.]

I think we all have a little part of us that thinks evil thoughts, therefore its fine to forgive yourself. Secondly some people put others on pedestals like priests for instance - he's just a regular man and you can't be 100% sure he's perfect.

[mala]

it's like having a dead hateful brain - no depth to it. But on second thoughts I dont think that Im evil really, I realise there could be worse ones, who are educated, have a normal lifestyle and evil and worse still aware of it and keep it a secret. Thx for advice but I dont like myself yet, most people in this world like themselves. Im very upset with myself.
mala

Originally Posted by mala

it's like having a dead hateful brain - no depth to it. ... Thx for advice but I dont like myself yet, most people in this world like themselves. Im very upset with myself.
mala

Rule of thumb: If you're upset with yourself because you believe you are evil, you're not evil.

I'm still not getting a good grasp on your cognitive process. Let's say you're walking through a secluded forest and you come across someone who has lost his or her way and has broken his or her leg (imagine whoever you like or hate. It doesn't matter). What is the first thought to cross your mind? How do you feel about that thought? What do you do? How do you feel about your decision?

I realise there could be worse ones, who are educated, have a normal lifestyle and evil and worse still aware of it and keep it a secret.

That's me!

[madisgram]

tadpoles represent a cycle of life. a progression of change. of course as we grow we will find things about ourselves we don't like but we can change..like a cocoon to a butterfly.

[emogirl21]

I'm exactly the same except it isn't a tadpole, it's an evil spirit. It's a dead person (not sure who yet, I'll have to ask it) whose spirit is living inside me.

[mala]

Hey Michael,
Im glad that I reflected a bit more again on this topic. My first reaction to your scenario was too help and call for help, a doctor - sort of beyond thought with your scenario. Anyway back to evil, this is a secret but there are non and religious people who communicate spiritually and its through a sexualised spiritual way too, and they are good "normal" folk. Ok they deny it and you could say well there's no harm, but what about people's energy, souls, etc that they are doing that with. Do they have a choice, isnt that interference, isnt that evil ? I and the experiences of friends in my prayer group feel it, and its usually feels like a white gay man, or if its a woman its usually not gay but feels wayward, sort of like subserviant and not wanting to take responsibility feminine creative spirit- kind of a damsel in distress yet goddess sexuality.Then I thought about it and decided that must be how the creative spirit God or Jesus is. Some of these people are very good folk. A friend once told me there is hell in the light. I darent tell a christian friend, that I actually prayed to her boss this week and met him in spirit and thought he really isnt all that , not being rude, but I have to be honest as Ive been pretending its not the truth and suffering for it. He is a very loving human being but with a dark side, with flaws and above all HE's A POLITICIAN. I know that many people know the same too. Now I dont know if he started out that way, or was transmorphed spiritually, but he wasnt sorry about the crusades and thought it was all part of the process. After gently presenting my thoughts ( not daring to disagree) he didnt want to know and must have gone off somewhere. Dont get me wrong, Im not agaisnt religion as such - I think it can bring out the best and worst in people and I love my christian friend . Also its a big political force that Im not about to disagree with, but isnt using your powers to brainwash someone, even for goodness, actually wrong? I dont think any genuine holy person is political, they teach you their principles and that's it.
Egirl if you really think you have an evil spirit then go to talk to a holy person - any religion will do and they will pray with you. Many things that present themselves as evil are like lost souls or energy, sometimes our own subconcious mind - very likely. It could be mental illness so see a good psychiatrist first.
Love
mala

Originally Posted by mala

Hey Michael,
Im glad that I reflected a bit more again on this topic. My first reaction to your scenario was too help and call for help, a doctor -

Your first reaction is to help him? You're not evil.

And pardon me for not responding sooner. I've been busy of late.

[mala]

I would help and hope that I would help an enemy too, but Im think people can be evil and still helpful - after all what goes on in this world all in the name of goodness? Anyway just to say to any religious people reading the previous post which didnt let me edit it, no offence, I have a few mental health probs that Im working through and have hallucinations and philosophising, so I hope that nobody was upset with the post. Im sure that Jesus is very different from my interpretation of Him.
Thanks Goodbye
Mala