[madisgram]

recently in a therapy session we discussed this very topic. i've been diverted re what i'm doing in this stage of my life. when T asked me what i really want to do and what truly matters i had no definitive answer. we are now focusing on these priorities. this occured when i suddenly felt lost. no direction. procrastination and yes, fear to explore. this was a foreign behavior for me. i'd always been able to define what goals i had in my life and now felt empty and in a rubbled state of mind. just when i think therapy is not needed anymore to fast track improvements i have unearthed another "peel of the onion".

Over the past few months, I've been thinking a lot about what truly matters. My mom's diagnosis, illness and death have caused me to stop, question and look more deeply at the things and people in my life that are important. Through the pain and challenge of this experience, I've also been grateful for the perspective and awareness it has opened up.
What I've noticed is that, sadly, I don't focus on what and who truly matters to me as much as I'd like. I tend to get distracted by fears, ego-obsessions, drama (in my own life and in the world), ambitions and all sorts of survival instincts and emotional reactions.

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/mike-r..._b_964350.html

Thanks, madisgram. Too often I spend time on less important things to avoid focusing on priorities that require commitment and more effort.