[ToBe]

Yeah,I shall be going into cut off mode. All this death has really torn me up. Every single animal that has died I stayed with and I hoped that they would pull through and then I had to watch them be put down. I feel really defeated. It didn't matter how late I stayed up,didn't matter how many shots were given,didn't matter how many times I said "I love you." or "You'll be alright." They died and there was nothing I could do. Every time I get close to feeling just a bit better and animal will get sick and die on me. It makes me not want to try anymore. My horse died and I stayed out there for hours with him and after he was put down I stayed there with his body and just cried for hours. Animals are not just pets for me their apart of my family. It's just really hard for me to try and get better when I'm feeling jinxed,every time I feel better,some thing bad happens.


Thanks for your time

[Suki22]

well, the way I look at it is, you made those animals last few hours on this Earth special by staying with them, telling them how much you loved them. you did what you can but Nature took it's course (sometimes via the Vet) and you gave them love. I know some people that can't have pets because the eventual loss and grief is too much for them. for me, it's part of the process and all of the happiness I get from having an animal far outweighs the negative eventuality of death. perhaps you need to take a break from pets, or perhaps you need to look at all the positives and length of happiness you get from them and concentrate on that. hang in there--you're not jinxed!