[and_im_still_here]

lately ive been feeling that something is just not right,
this terrible thing is happening at home (i wont talk about it still because im not sure) and while everyone cries and feels worried, im just sitting there listening to what my family talks and i feel like im not there or im just like in a pretend world or something, this feeling is strange, like when its time to worry or cry or be sad, i dont feel sad, if it werent because of my respect i would probably laugh too, and i feel bad because its something serious and scary and im just not feeling it.
But im nervous when things happen that are more simple and im starting to build this ¨biting my hand thing¨ when i feel in danger...

can someone help me with this???

[lizardlady]

You say something terrible is happening at home. Some times when stress gets to be too much to deal with people just shut down emotionally. Could that be what's happening to you?

It could be depersonalisation. This is when you feel like everything isn't real or you can see yourself from outside of your body..and it can also happen after something traumatic happens.
I hope you feel better soon

[Open Eyes]

(((((((and im still here)))))),

I honestly feel that the reason you feel this way is due to the mixed up situation that is going on in your home. I think that some of what your feeling would be normal for anyone your age that has experienced a home base of confusion and most likely too much out of the norm for you to honestly know how to react. Thank God we have ourselves to talk to sometimes is all I can say because we are our best listeners and confidants.

As human beings we are designed to have a structure growing up that we can understand and follow that also fills our real needs of being nurtured properly.
It has been proven by studying primates that when this doesn't happen the offspring truely struggles. This is not your fault you know and I can't blame you for being at a loss of knowing how to actually emotionally address certain issues that come up regarding other people in your life.

Honestly?, if you really spent a lot of time reading the posts of different members here and you considered the base of confusion, well, much of that comes from these members experiencing some very troubled childhoods. It isn't just that there is a roof over their heads and food on the table, it is the reality of a very important structure that helps us all establish a sense of personal well being that is a miss.

When you talk about being more nervous about simple things being confused somehow, well that would be normal as well because it is these simple things that bring a sense of structure you truely need and find comfort in. So, that in itself doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you either. I would say that considering your circumstances, it would affect any person that way.

Different than others?, well I am sure that your feeling this way is also what I would consider normal too for anyone who would have grown up with such a confusing haphazzard structure/base.

Others saying your crazy?, HMMMM let me just think about that one, considering the amount of that being a constant here among so many that grew up in confusion, well, the crazy is actually in those that are saying your crazy.

Honestly? I think that it is time for you to recognize that the people around you are truely not the norm and your reactions are what any normal person would have. What that means is that you need to make an effort to do your best to distance from these strange disfunctional people and allow yourself to be around others that are actually more well balanced with more REAL structure. It is actually going to take you some time to distance and move toward a healthier kind of structure. But please realize that your probably the only one that has the REAL ability to finally be able to do that.
If you recognize this for what it really is and actually give yourself some credit because you do see the situation in actually a normal way. Then, you can progress and actually acomplish what you should really be, normal.

Open Eyes

[Perna]

Originally Posted by and_im_still_here

. . .like when its time to worry or cry or be sad, i dont. . .

We all have our own individual reactions to things; try not to compare yourself with others in your family. Often if there is nothing one can do then waiting to see what develops before responding can be the best action. You say you do not know. . . so wait and see what happens, then you will be better able to look and see how you feel about it and what you want to do in response to it.