[MellBrown1]

I've always known there is something not right about me, I often get mood swings, my mind is erratic and I am so confused with myself ! I can't quite explain.

But anyway, I found out about schizotypal disorder the other day, I scanned through just out of curiosity (I tend to get interested in this sort of stuff) And I was quite shocked as quite a lot of it related to me. Although I am not convinced, I just want people that maybe know more about it or personally have this disorders advice.

For quite sometime I believed I was psychic, I used to believe that I was different in a spiritual sense and that it made me feel more superior.

I also believe that I can see into peoples souls through there eyes. I may be considered 'odd' by many, I can either be really confident and funny, or really socially awkward, quiet and sometimes *****y. I embarass myself and say things without thinking that makes people think "wow you freak". Sometimes I mumble a lot or I will talk really fast and people can't understand me. I often believe that people are thinking about me which often makes me feel uncomfortable. Looks wise, I am very insecure about the way I look and often try to hide my face.

I believe in things like witchcraft and mind control. I believe I am often being watched often, through my bedroom window in particular. I can't sleep with my door, or curtains open. And I feel as if I can sense dark forces, right now they are coming from my cupboard which is probably going to make it hard for me to sleep.

I do however have quite a lot of friends, and somewhat a social life. But I tend to spend time doing things like watching documentaries and spend ALOT of time indoors and on the computer doing pointless un constructive things.

Would you honestly think that I have this disorder? and should it be something speaking to a professional about? The idea of talking about my feelings like that would make me feel quite nervous and i'm not sure how I would tell my parents but I am not sure :/ Suicidal thoughts and constant confusion, erratic thoughts, not being able to stick to something has all been quite an annoyance and has giving me the idea that life is.. well... pointless.

[Junerain]

I hope you find the answers you need. Have you ever seen a psychiatrist or been in therapy? I have found these things extremely helpful. I found this on the mayo clinic's website, it may help you..

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/sch...-and-diagnosis

[gma45]

Yes I believe talking with a professional is a good idea even a counselor at school might help you in your quest. I wish you well.