[alice1993]

hello again. basically I am in a bit of a corner right now. I don't know who to go to for some help with whats wrong right now. I even find it difficult to write on here because someone may find my posts and blackmail me or someting worse. So I will try to keep it simple. my head is very very foggy and it's difficult to think even simple things, let alone schoolwork. I'm even having trouble right now trying to think of what I was going to write. I dont fit in with my family, I pulled away from my friends a few years ago and i only have a few people i would consider as a friends who is almost an aquantance. Most people who know me think my thoughts and ideas are not true when i know they are. The thoughts haven't bothered me as much since I started the meds, is that a good thing? I don't know, they may make me unaware of very important things. I don't like to talk about my problems unless i know person X won't judge or break trust. Yet people i'm closest to, I dont like talking about these things because it bothers them or puts them at risk. When someone asks if i'm hearing someone's (or more than 1) voice, I don't know what to say, they may know who the voices are and report back to them? sometimes it's a person who speaks to me and tells me what to do or sometimes even a joke, then theres others who are talking to each other about me. I've spent a lot of time trying to find a pattern in these voices and bothers from a suggestion by a doctor. At first i thought they were worse when my mood dipped, but theyre not. it happens any time, happy sad etc. although if i hear, see, smell, think something nasty, it will almost always send me spiralling. sorry for the vagueness I just need to be vigilant. p
s- i sometimes see a psychiatrist, i was also wondering if there would be a chance my meds contain the psycadelic part of a magic mushroom? i've never done drugs, but I keep getting this nasty feeling they have put some in to try and make me look the fool. Sorry if this isnt too clear I just need some advice from anyone, also if anyone else has felt this way and what helped. thank you

[gma45]

Hi, First I want to say I love the horse picture! Have you been taking your meds for very long? I don't think anyone would be putting anything in them. Some times it takes a while for them to work properly. If they are still making you feel strange I would make sure you tell your Dr. next time you see him or call him if it gets too bad. Please take care you are not a fool.