[LittleMilly]

My Real name is birth name is Amelia but i had my name changed to Milly
because of what my birth mother did.

I was born in Hong Kong and lived there till I was three,
At the age of 2 I was put into foster care because my mother was abusing and
starving me. (This is what I've been told)

At the age of three I was raped by my foster dad and then sent to another
foster family. They brought me to Australia. At the age of four I found out
that my birth mother was in jail because she had starved my sister to death
and was charged with murder. I had to have my name changed so she did not
try to kill me too.

When I was five I moved to another foster family because the one I was with
couldn't afford to keep me. For the next two years things went smoothly.
Then I was seven and I began to cut because I was moved to yet another
foster family and things at school were not going well.

When I was eight I found my half-brother and he came too live with me. I
moved schools three times that year. The next two years were fine. When I
was eleven I was adopted by a family that had 2 lovely girls and 1 boy. They
adopted both me and my brother.

When I was 12 I began to hallucinate really badly and had to go to hospital
heaps. That year I was admitted to the psychiatric ward 3 times because
every time I hallucinated I would scream and be weird. The only one who
would ever come and visit me in hospital was my bother.

When I was 13 I was admitted to hospital and was being watched 24/7 for
suicidal attempts. 2 days later my brother was admitted because he kept
screaming out every time someone mentioned school and my name. Also that
year i was diagnosed with schizophrenia and depression.

Recently this year I got a court order against my dad because he tried to
kill me, instead of killing me he killed my brother. Also this year I lost
my friend because she committed suicide and I have been adopted by another
family. I've cut and tried suicide twice but now I'm on a mission to stop
cutting and turn my life around.
I also met a guy called Callum and he has helped me through heaps.

Yes if you count through the years I am only 14 going 15 this year. Though I
am still young I think I have much to offer. I've dedicated my life to
helping others and supporting others. I hope I can help any of you and would
love to help in anyway possible…

Milly

[wizzard]

Dear Milly,
All the time I have been writing you, I had no idea that your life was so terreble I feel so heart broken for you, I don't know what to say- you have always been a good friend to me, I just wish I could take away all your pain,I can't imagin how you must be suffering- please keep in touch with me you always have a friend here and you have my email, I wish I could say something that would make you smile, but I know the tears are falling, and there is nothing I can do.

[zombiette]

Milly,
I am so sorry that u've had to go thru so much for someone so young...u've been a great help to me and i hope that things are better from here *hugs*

Milly,

My heart goes out to you.

No child should ever have to deal with so much and I'm sorry you had to.

It is truly amazing that you have come out of all that such a poised, smart young woman who is taking such giant healing steps at fourteen. I applaud you.

I admire the courage it took to tell your story. What you've endured would bring the strongest to their knees, yet you stand stronger, with your hand extended, offering support.

That is remarkable.

Petunia

Yes.

I agree with all of the points made above.

And, if I can, I want to share a little bit of myself.

I too struggled throughout my early teens, and let me tell you, its not a fun time even WITHOUT dealing with everything else that you are dealing with.

You are doing fantastic though.

Try and keep in mind to remember that you are still 14 and you should still have time to just be a silly teenager and things like that too - you deserve it.

Much love goes out to you.

[LittleMilly]

Oh my gosh thanks fr all your support...
i just wanted to let people know why i suffer so much...
i never felt so loved

*HUGS TO ALL*

Milly

[bipolar_bear]

((((((((((((((((Milly)))))))))))))) I am so sorry for all you have endured in such a short time. You are an amazing and strong person. Please take care of yourself.

[sujunew]

((((((((((milly))))))))))
milly, it has taken so much courage for you to tell your story to us all. you are wise beyond your years, which is sad because of the circumstances, but which is going to be so valuable to you as you go through the healing process and all the ups and downs that will always be there. You have SO much to offer to people, as you are such a caring, sensitive, amazing person. I hope that you will be able to enjoy the rest of your teens without too much difficulty, and go on to fulfill your huge potential. Good on you, and take care. I hope you are feeling better than you have been .

[Lexicon78]

(((((Milly)))))

You are strong and have a will to survive like no other. Please tap into that strength when you are feeling your weakest.

We are all here for you.

[Evangelista]

(((Milly)))

You offer wisdom beyond your years, thank you for sharing your story, I am so sorry for the pain you have had to endure and continue to survive with, but find hope in your words of support and your actions as you continue to seek healing from all this pain that encircles your life..take care..

[dottie]

Hi Milly. I don't think there are adequate words in the English language to describe how badly I feel after reading your story. Man's inhumanity to man seems to have no boundries set forth. When little children and babies are treated in such fashion it's enough to make my hair curl. I wish I could take away all of your horrible experiences. I can't do that. But I can tell you that you are very much loved here on PC. Thank you for allowing us to view your life. I am sure we are doing so with tears!

Take very good care of yourself. You are in my prayers!!~Dottie

[sujunew]

p.s. when I said i thought you were heading into spring/ summer i had no idea you lived in australia. hi neighbour, guess we are heading for the rough seasons but we will just have try to keep our chins up!!!
TC

[praxis]

((((((oh, milly!))))) That is such a lot of heartbreak and disruption for one young girl to endure. I wish I could take all your pain away. Be strong when you can. And when you can't be strong, come here and know you are loved.

[desirae]

Milly,

Hey girl, I just wanted to leave a comment and let yopu know I am listening to you. I feel your story and pain, I've been through alot of that myself. You present yourself well for such horrific happenings.

But that's a survival instinct, a dealing with it mechanism.

Thanks for sharing your story with us, and we love you here.

[tracylee]

Wow Milly, I read your post and my immediate thoughts were how strong you are to offer people your help, awesome, awesome, awesome.

I read a book called UGLY it is a true account of this woman who lived thru pretty much the same sort of horror that you went thru. Awesome book!! She has since grown up and put her self thru school and work and she is now one of Englands top female judges!!

I also feel that with your sense of strength, you are going to achieve a lot in your life and be a great friend and healer of broken people. May God bless you, biggest huggles!!

[wisewoman]

Milly, I am amazed that you could even find the language to express what you have been through. You are surely healing with each new day and new positive experience. I think it is way-cool that you want to help others. I would like to also suggest has have others that you take time out to see who you are and play. You are not the sum total of your abuse or your history, you are much more. Take time to find that self. Good luck. You deserve it.

[LittleMilly]

thankyou too everyone for all your support... im going through a bit of a though time right now so i may not be posting often...

Anyways thanks for the support

[SleepsWithButterFlies]

I think and I am so sorry you have had such a hard life... (( milly)) safe hugs and I hope that spot ends soon