Just a heard a song from the past.

i was just browsing songs to download and i saw one from about 8 years ago, when i was about 11 years old, i downloaded it and listened to it, for the first time in a LONG time, and it was so wierd to hear, brought back numerous memories of my distraught childhood...although i must say that the memories are good ones (they are mostly of a holiday i had at that age, is the best holiday i have ever had) and that song was played in the bar thing on the site when i was there.

even though they are good memories, i now feel unhappy, and i am finding it really hard to explain why, i think its because most of my memories are bad in one way or another so when i have memories like this it makes me unhappy, and i really dont know why...i think i miss that certain period (even though that was the age i was when i as being sexually abused - but that isnt in the memory thankfully)

i hope im making sense, to try to sum it up... i suppose i can say im feeling unhappy because ive had a memory and i desperately want to go back to that holiday thats in the memory. i feel quite emotional now actually. now im missing my mum and stuff. i dont like it when things happen like this, i didnt think the song was going to trigger this, maybe its a good thing that it has. shame because i really like that song.

by the way, if your wondering what the song was its Del Amitri - Roll Over Me