[Beautiful_Pain]

I have a really hard time with people looking at me, sometimes they aren't even really looking at me but one of my voices says they are. I don't like staring, but even people just 'looking' at me, really freaks me out. My husband and I went to a very small casino last night so he and his friend could play some live, cash poker games. I took a couple 5s and was playing the keno games. I started freaking out, went to the bathroom repeatedly so no one could see me, started staring at the 'play' button on my machine so I couldn't see, even periphally, if anyone was looking at me. Which may have been a mistake, as then I felt people looking and couldn't see if anyone actually was. My face went numb and tingly, the feeling started moving down my body. By the time we left, my chest and arms were feeling that way too. Numb and tingly may just sound annoying, but that along with the 'fog' that accompanies it, are what precedes a psychotic episode for me. I felt a little better on the one hour drive home, the numbness receded a bit anyway. One of my voices was staring at me and wouldn't leave me alone, even at home. So, I got some chinese leftovers and sat with my husband while we ate and talked on the bed. After 1.5 hours or a bit longer, the numbness and fog started retreating further, finally leaving later on. That's a detailed explanation of a singe instance, it happens quite alot, during anytime I am out of the house and around strangers. I'm starting to get scared to go out of the house.

[January]

Oh Bp! I'm so sorry that happened to you.

You are describing what I have when I have panic attacks, although mine don't go on into psychosis. Can you ask your pdoc for some meds for social anxiety? It might help you a lot.

Gentle hugs if ok,

Jan

[Beautiful_Pain]

{{{{Jan}}}}

I just went to my md a couple days ago and got back on paxil and risperdal (haven't gotten the rx's filled yet). The paxil (which is prescribed for depression for me) is what my husband is on for anxiety, so it may help? I have to go back for a follow up in a month, so if its not helping, I will most likely bring it up.

It just bothers me, I've never really liked people looking at me, but my reaction was never this extreme, until quite recently.

[January]

((((((((( BP ))))))))))))

Has something happened recently to upset you more than usual? Is there some new stressor that you're having?

Panic attacks are horrible. I have Panic Disorder, and had them from the time I was a child. Please be very honest with your Dr. so you can get the help you need.

I've never used Paxil for my panic, but that doesn't mean it won't work. Just in case it doesn't, don't hesitate to ask for something else.

Hugs,

Jan

[Bethsway]

OH my god...you sound just like me...I get paralized when I think someone is looking at me and then they think I am being snobbish or something....sometimes even ignoring them...that is not it at all...I am just so enbarrassed that I can't face people...I love people...that is what is so odd about it..

[JustAPixie]

((((((((((((( BP ))))))))))))

What you go thsough must be horrible! I wish I had some advice...

[hillbunnyb]

geez, how hard for you gyz. all i know to do when I "anything" is keep breathing and get home as soon as i can, but i don't trip out this way........ hope the meds work.

[Beautiful_Pain]

Thanks for the replies. It helps me not to feel so 'freakish' that other people have similar experience

Hoping to get prescriptions filled tomorrow, I was kind of waiting until after today (rheumatologist appt) so I could get my meds all together and not have 2+ trips every month to pick them up.

{{{hugs for huggers}}} }}}bumps for the others{{{

[Beautiful_Pain]

Jan, I can't think of anything unusual that's happened...I've tried to think since I read your post, I come up with nothing. I don't know what's going on.

[tiger78]

sounds like panic attacks that I have had.... nothing needs to happen in life ... brain chemistry. Meds help tremendously and I can some times medicate one a way before it becomes full blown. Talk to your dr. I am so sorry - they are terrible - just terrible to deal with.

[alisandria]

(((bp))) hope you are doing better....it's awful scary to feel that way

hugs, Lisa

[weather]

People ahead of me gave some good advice. I know what you are going through, but in a different way. It was hellish and my first desire was to hide in my house. In my case, it was as my appearance was changing, and I was fighting it. Once I accepted myself, others did.

I know your problem is different, but I have been where you are. Please let us know how you are doing.