[henrydavidtherobot]

I'm on my last few days of a month long stay in Europe. It has been awesome, but also very hard at times. I really appreciate everyone who replied to my forums.

Anyway, without my T and with little contact with my loved ones, I have found that I have become a stronger and more sane person on this trip. I've confronted a lot of really hard emotions and learned from them. I have more faith (most of the time) that it is okay for me to be the nut I am and that I'm still an awesome person. I still have a lot of stuff to work on, but I'm making strides.

Please don't ever give up. Happiness and contentedness are just to amazing to not work for. It gets hard and discouraging at times, but you never know when something will click and life will get easier. There have been so many times where I thought "I'm unfixable, what's the point", but I feel that way less and less as I continue growing up and seeking treatment. Today, I am having a rough anxiety day, but I have had these days here and felt differently the next day, so I know that I just have to push through today and then it will be good again. I even was able to stretch and breathe myself out of a panic attack outside Starbucks in a busy area with my companion realizing that I was unwell. It gets easier.

Please don't ever give up on yourselves. You're all too beautiful to do that.

[gayleggg]

Glad it was such a positive trip for you. You sound like you are in a good place. Keep up the good work.
Gayle