Recently my girlfriend and I have been arguing a lot. It's not that we are or need to break up, it's more that we are both dealing with a lot of stress and I've been experiencing a lot of depression.

This morning something that had to do with our dogs or something got us in to an argument. I have lost control of a lot of my temper and started raising my voice at her. It just turned in to a massive argument and I felt like I was going to get violent, so I went and took a bath and was extremely depressed so I just wouldn't talk to her. She wanted to talk about our relationship options and finally when I couldn't find any words because I was feeling so crappy, she was enraged also and said she was leaving me and started grabbing her stuff and her dog. She said she was going to call my mom and let her know how bad my depression is and so I went to go grab my keys to leave so that no one could find me. She just grabbed my wrist to stop me from leaving and I lost my ****. I screamed for her not to touch me and started hysterically crying and screaming. She didn't know what to do but try to hold me so I wouldn't hurt her or hurt myself. I just kept screaming and hitting her trying to push her away. I crouched to the ground and covered my face and kept screaming and crying while she held me trying to calm me down. She said that it was so scary that she was on the verge of calling 911. And I couldn't stop. I couldn't calm down. It went on for a while. Then I would calm down and something small would upset me and the screaming/crying started again.

I can normally tell what my episodes are, but I have no idea what this is. And it's happened quite a bit throughout my past.

I am diagnosed Bipolar 1, BPD, ASPD, and I am 22 weeks pregnant.

Any ideas?

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by Aanga

Recently my girlfriend and I have been arguing a lot. It's not that we are or need to break up, it's more that we are both dealing with a lot of stress and I've been experiencing a lot of depression.

This morning something that had to do with our dogs or something got us in to an argument. I have lost control of a lot of my temper and started raising my voice at her. It just turned in to a massive argument and I felt like I was going to get violent, so I went and took a bath and was extremely depressed so I just wouldn't talk to her. She wanted to talk about our relationship options and finally when I couldn't find any words because I was feeling so crappy, she was enraged also and said she was leaving me and started grabbing her stuff and her dog. She said she was going to call my mom and let her know how bad my depression is and so I went to go grab my keys to leave so that no one could find me. She just grabbed my wrist to stop me from leaving and I lost my s**t. I screamed for her not to touch me and started hysterically crying and screaming. She didn't know what to do but try to hold me so I wouldn't hurt her or hurt myself. I just kept screaming and hitting her trying to push her away. I crouched to the ground and covered my face and kept screaming and crying while she held me trying to calm me down. She said that it was so scary that she was on the verge of calling 911. And I couldn't stop. I couldn't calm down. It went on for a while. Then I would calm down and something small would upset me and the screaming/crying started again.

I can normally tell what my episodes are, but I have no idea what this is. And it's happened quite a bit throughout my past.

I am diagnosed Bipolar 1, BPD, ASPD, and I am 22 weeks pregnant.

Any ideas?

it could be just about anything. we arent allowed to make diagnosis but considering all you listed as your diagnosis it can happen with any of the above or none of them at all. i do know some people that get so enraged that this kind of thing happens and its just called getting angry. the line in the sand is that it can fit any number of things. my suggestion contact your treatment providers they will be able to tell you if this is a normal part of where you are age wise or because of your mental or physical health issues or something different, and they can tell you whats the best way to handle this kind of situation given your mental and physical health issues.

[possum220]

Like amandalouise said.... it might be a good idea to talk to your treatment providers. It could be lots of things. Sometimes it is also good to talk to some-one who isn't personally invested in your life. If that cant be soon maybe write down what is inside your heart and let it flow out. No-body has to see it.
Just seeing the words on a page helps me. I hope it can help you too.

Thank you. I know we can't diagnose on here. I all ready have my set diagnosis. My girlfriend and I think it may have been bipolar related but we are unsure.

I'm also 26 years old, so I know it's not puberty hormones. But I'm sure pregnancy hormones didn't help the situation.

[MarlboroChick]

Im sorry this happened to you two. Ive been in the exact same situation as you (aside from the pregnancy) and ive lost my **** so many times, im almost afraid of myself sometimes. Were you manic?
I cant say for you, but whenever that happens to me its usually a combination of stress and being pushed a little too hard. Pent up emotions, too.