[rigaschuckler]

I don't know about others but i had an experience.Its like living through others life.It is in literature and other stuff but i did it.I used to listen to other people's stories, because i thought one day i could write stories based up on them.so one day comes this guy .He was in my college in my room.He was a nerd.He came from a very affluent family there and thought he is very very handsome (He looks ok though) and he was addicted to flirting.Everygirl he met in life he would try to flirt.I dont know why did i take notice but i became an active listener .I never noticed for alomst 2 years, the relation was going from being a friend, to his admirer,to somewhat of his disciple, and at last his slave.I was never used to flirting befeore because i didnt like that.If i love a woman i wanted to love.But he thought (I guess)It was my weakness and soon he discovered many other stuffs-like i was'not good looking',;not walking properly','not fit in to a society' and 'it was his duty to teach me stuffs like that'.' that i was like a primitive tribal from somewhere who must be taught civilization and it was his duty to do that'.prior to that , i was 'civilized' in my own ways as you know.He dreamt about 'gifting' a life for me by him and he once got a 'girl friend' for me.I don't know why did i obey to all of this, might be because of my self esteem was at lowest ebb then (These stuffs happened almost 1 year ago)
Last month i went there again as i changed a lot during this one year.The guy i met, and he had a new Armenian Girl with him.He said his total count was 24 now and laughed.I laughed too .because i knew there wasn't any change.
Are there any psychological phenomenon for my attitude towards him on those days-this slave attitude i need to know.Its my fault i agree.

[Hopelesspoppy]

Originally Posted by rigaschuckler

I don't know about others but i had an experience.Its like living through others life.It is in literature and other stuff but i did it.I used to listen to other people's stories, because i thought one day i could write stories based up on them.so one day comes this guy .He was in my college in my room.He was a nerd.He came from a very affluent family there and thought he is very very handsome (He looks ok though) and he was addicted to flirting.Everygirl he met in life he would try to flirt.I dont know why did i take notice but i became an active listener .I never noticed for alomst 2 years, the relation was going from being a friend, to his admirer,to somewhat of his disciple, and at last his slave.I was never used to flirting befeore because i didnt like that.If i love a woman i wanted to love.But he thought (I guess)It was my weakness and soon he discovered many other stuffs-like i was'not good looking',;not walking properly','not fit in to a society' and 'it was his duty to teach me stuffs like that'.' that i was like a primitive tribal from somewhere who must be taught civilization and it was his duty to do that'.prior to that , i was 'civilized' in my own ways as you know.He dreamt about 'gifting' a life for me by him and he once got a 'girl friend' for me.I don't know why did i obey to all of this, might be because of my self esteem was at lowest ebb then (These stuffs happened almost 1 year ago)
Last month i went there again as i changed a lot during this one year.The guy i met, and he had a new Armenian Girl with him.He said his total count was 24 now and laughed.I laughed too .because i knew there wasn't any change.
Are there any psychological phenomenon for my attitude towards him on those days-this slave attitude i need to know.Its my fault i agree.

Classic narcissistic disorder. He gauged your self-esteem carefully and went for the jugular. Maybe there is a thread elsewhere here on this...