[Punkenz343]

Hey, I'm new to this forum and I've been kind of in a bad place today and thought maybe some feed back would help. Knowing I'm not alone on this.

I tend to think to much about little things. I will take something that...maybe a normal person would not think much of and blow it up and make it an issue. For example I have a boyfriend of a year now and I've done this a few times in our relationship. Where he will say one thing..and I won't say anything back but I will sit there and think about it..and run over the possibilites over and over and over in my head and normally they are negative. Honestly most of the time if I'm in my right mind i would never believe any of the possibilites my mind comes up with but If I am slightly upset in anyway I believe myself. I make that small thing into a huge problem. I hate myself for it.

I try to work on myself to much. I always say if me and my boyfriend get in an argument or disagreement it is normally my fault. I talk a lot, he doesn't. So normally I am the one who starts it. I put myself down for it all the time. I tell myself I need to work on this, or this or this and this. over and over and maybe because I'm trying to change myself so much I'm stressing myself out? Maybe I'm over thinking how I act, or I tell myself I act this way when I really don't.

I think I may have some type of emotional disorder because I get upset easily..I don't know how to calm myself down. I think negatively and hate myself. I don't understand why I feel this way, or if these feelings are really mine or am I just making myself believe this is how I feel?

I get jealous over people who have friends since I don't. I hate not knowing what is going on. I like to know what day is the next time I get to see my boyfriend and when I don't I get upset. I like to stick to stuff I know. I may have a issue with coping with my emotions, so once I starrt to cry it takes me forever to stop. I am shy. I say I'm sorry a lot. I'm just a confused mess of emotions. I am not depressed always, I am normally a happy person.

Anyone else experience this?

[Travelinglady]

Hi, Punkenz343! Welcome to Psych Central! I can't say I have those particular issues. You might want to post about your concerns in forums here such as Coping with Emotions and Relationships.

Have you considered seeing a therapist? I did have trouble with relationships, so I saw one, found out what my problems were, and got treated for them.