It's been really great to have been able to not visit this site for months. It's not that I don't appreciate it, but the fact is, I found a great therapist and didn't need to come here because she was helping me work through things on my own.

That said, I felt compelled to drop by the boards today.

For the past week, a certain situation has been replaying in my head every time I have a moment to myself. The bigger problem, I think, is that I've been fantasizing about how the situation should have played out. The fantasy goes against everything I've been working through over the past year. I suppose it's fine because I've no plans to put anything into action - it's just sort of daydreaming. But it's obviously enough to send me back here to muse about it.

My sleep habits have been off again too; having trouble falling and staying asleep, being exhausted at work, etc. I don't know if that's the cause or the result of my overthinking - a bit of a chicken and egg case.

I just want to be able to move on for good...

please do not be offended - but I am glad you are back.

i know you said you wished you were not here, well some of us look forward to seeing you (and others) here each day. You are part of a family that supports each other.

so - whatever the reason you are here - I am grateful. I hope your day ends up being a great day. that is exactly what you deserve!

It took me a bit of time to reply to this. Towards the end of my visits to PC when I first started coming around here, I started to feel like this place was not what I needed. Sometimes I felt like there was just too much negativity and it was not useful in trying to heal myself.

I suppose another issue is that I could never really come out and say exactly what brought me here in the first place. Still can't. I've been ignored and insulted when I admitted the cause elsewhere and I've seen others with similar concerns be rejected here.

Coming back here...I mean, really coming back? I'm not sure if I want this place permanently in my life. But for now, perhaps it will serve its purpose. Time will tell...

Regardless, I appreciate the sentiment, UM. Thanks.

I first saw the theory I'm going to talk about in "The Depression Cure: The 6-Step Program to Beat Depression without Drugs".

The theory is that rumination occurs when there is nothing else to think about, as your brain wants to be occupied - thus, engaging in something you care for will stop the thoughts.

I'm not sure what you would prefer - a few examples of things to engage in could be books, movies, video games, anything that captures your attention and demands it.

PsychCentral can be a kind place. It may help you to exclude forums with the least helpful content, if you have not done that already.

Originally Posted by solluxcaptor

The theory is that rumination occurs when there is nothing else to think about, as your brain wants to be occupied - thus, engaging in something you care for will stop the thoughts.

I'm not sure what you would prefer - a few examples of things to engage in could be books, movies, video games, anything that captures your attention and demands it.

I suppose the biggest problem is that it happens as I'm in bed, waiting for sleep to come. Likely the cause of my perpetual insomnia. But I certainly don't want to get up and switch to "entertainment mode" during that time, lest I never get sleep!

Eh, this theory, admittedly, does work during the day. I find when I start feeling "musey", it's actually quite easy to distract myself. Thanks for the info.

[healingme4me]

Glad to see you back.