[kittyfaye]

This is really long so I apologize and hope someone takes their time to read it. I really need some hugs and a pick-me-up badly. I thought everything was gonna go smoothly but I guess not. When I graduated highschool in 2008 I started college that fall majoring in graphic design. I thought it was what I was supposed to be doing. Nope, after the second semester I lost my scholarships and decided to transfer to a different college for nursing. I made a D in my anatomy and physiology class. My mother mentioned joining the Air Force so I did. I graduated basic training and went on to tech school. I was going to be an EMT with the AF. Nope again, I failed the skills test four times due to severe anxiety. I decided I would try again and join the Reserves as a jet engine mechanic. I go to tech school for that and three weeks from graduation I fail one of the hands-on engine tests and I get discharged again. At this point I want to give up. I was about to go to school for business but changed my mind when a friend of mine took an EMT class and told me about it and told me I could do it if I wanted to. I knew in the back of my head that the medical field was my calling and decided to take on the challenge of taking another EMT class last year in January. I recently just got my national license in the mail and am waiting for my state license to come in the mail. (I am very proud of myself to say the least.) I cannot get hired as an EMT right at this moment because I need to renew my driver''s license to a class D license. I went to do that yesterday and apparently I owe money because last year I sold my Ford Taurus to my mom and I took the insurance off of it and told I was going to so she would put hers on it. Then when they went to turn the plate in and get a new one, the DMV told her she didn't have to turn the plate in. That was bullcrap because I never heard of a dmv telling someone they didn't have to turn in a plate. So I have to go take care of that crap first thing Monday. I can't get hired as an EMT till i get my state license in the mail either. And another thing that is keeping me from getting an EMT job is that a few weeks ago I was switching car insurance and I found out a minor fender bender I was in three years ago had been listed as reckless operation!! It wasn't supposed to be that, it was supposed to be careless! I ran around like a chicken with it's head cut off trying to get that fixed but the court had it in the system that it was careless op. BUT why the hell does the report in my hand (from my employer) say reckless?? I still haven't figured that out, and to top it all off, my client quit the home health company I work for so I've been without a permanent client for three weeks. The first week I didn't have any work at all, the second week I trained with a bunch of people just as back up and this week I haven't had work again. I got my paycheck today ( I get one every two weeks.) and it was only $190. I tried to get gas earlier today before I picked my check up and it kept declining my card. I had only $7 in my wallet so I had to use that and drive an hour on two gallons of gas. After I picked up my check and went to the bank, the teller said my account is in the negatives. My measly little paycheck didn't even get it back into positive. my savings are gone, it's all gone. I only get paid $7.25/hr and I haven't had any work. I owe a bunch of medical bills and other money and bills; I feel so overwhelmed. I was looking forward to this EMT stuff working out. My boyfriend is laid off and his parents are on disability and broke too. When will anything start looking up again? There has got to be a silver lining somewhere!

[live2ski66]

I can so relate. My story is somewhat similar. At the bottom of the abyss my ex mother in law and ex husband rescued me. I thought I would never be able to stop the free fall and that I was all on my own. Hang in there, you never know who is looking out for you. I'm sending you virtual hugs.

[Anouk]

Just sorry for all that you have been through. Dont know what the answer is, wish I did. I just hope that you can find a way for things to work out.