[ExistingInChanges]

Well, I got on disability about a year ago or so for mental illnesses. Today I had to call the lady that manages my disability and talk to her about every problem from my past pretty much..well that is exaggerating. I did feel better after talking about it, but it was a lot to discuss. It is tormenting my mind, because it is still affecting my future and I'm trying to making it through the past and the present all at once. I don't know how to handle things "one at a time" because it all hits and keeps repeating in your head and you get racing thoughts mixed in with it and it is so overbearing, so I didn't know what category to place this in. My mood swings have been extremely crazy today and I haven't even made it to lunchtime yet...

sorry to be COMPLETELY egocentric.... but I can not tell you how jealous I am of the concept of being labeled "disabled" due to my depression.

No work and still get "some" income? Sign me up!

[justbeingme80]

Useless_me, I'm not sure what you meant by your post, but being on disability is not easy. I would work if I could and besides that, I get so little I barely make ends me. It's not "free" money. I worked hard and paid into the system. I don't want to get into a political discussion, that's not my point...but it's not easy being on disability. It's not a vacation either. I've been very sick, I spent seven months out of last year in inpatient.

I meant NO disrespect.........

sorry if I came across poorly - not my intent.

[SeekerOfLife]

Sometimes I wish I could get on disability. I do home health care and I have seen individuals that are just as healthy as I am on it.

On the other hand, I love to be busy, and I get a sense of self worth from working.

[punkybrewster6k]

Originally Posted by Useless Me

I meant NO disrespect.........

sorry if I came across poorly - not my intent.

Yea you sure do! Lol. You are a kind person who writes conversations and responses poorly. Maybe try putting a little message in your profile section. I dont remember what it is called.... The bottom section where every time you post it posts.with yoir comment. Lile mine says I have a daughter with schizophrenia etc. That way people can realize you are not being insulting. I hope you dont think I am insulting YOU because im not. Just trying to help. You ARE a very helpful person once people understand.

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appreciate the advice...........................

i guess i would do better if i would just STFU.

sorry.

[punkybrewster6k]

Originally Posted by ExistingInChanges

Well, I got on disability about a year ago or so for mental illnesses. Today I had to call the lady that manages my disability and talk to her about every problem from my past pretty much..well that is exaggerating. I did feel better after talking about it, but it was a lot to discuss. It is tormenting my mind, because it is still affecting my future and I'm trying to making it through the past and the present all at once. I don't know how to handle things "one at a time" because it all hits and keeps repeating in your head and you get racing thoughts mixed in with it and it is so overbearing, so I didn't know what category to place this in. My mood swings have been extremely crazy today and I haven't even made it to lunchtime yet...

Yea. Dealing with SSI is enough to set many peoples head spinning!

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[punkybrewster6k]

Originally Posted by Useless Me

appreciate the advice...........................

i guess i would do better if i would just STFU.

sorry.

Of course not. you have a lot of wisdom. Some see your way of speaking as harsh. Thats all. I used to do the same thing and on ocassion still do. I try to look at what I wrote and see how it sounds. If I cant tell....stick a smily face at the end or a hug. Lol

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Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k

Of course not. you have a lot of wisdom.

I have wisdom? Gee - for a minute there I thought you were serious....

[badmouse]

Originally Posted by ExistingInChanges

I don't know how to handle things "one at a time" because it all hits and keeps repeating in your head and you get racing thoughts mixed in with it and it is so overbearing .

Gosh. If you ever figure out anything that helps, let me know. And you're right - disability is a lot of work.

Best to you -

[justbeingme80]

Useless_me, I hope my post didn't come across as criticizing or harsh. I didn't mean it that way. It's hard when you read text since you don't have a person's tone of voice or body language to understand as well. I see your point now though. I'm sorry if I came across wrong.

[ExistingInChanges]

Originally Posted by Useless Me

sorry to be COMPLETELY egocentric.... but I can not tell you how jealous I am of the concept of being labeled "disabled" due to my depression.

No work and still get "some" income? Sign me up!

Yeah, I get where you're coming from. I just always have wanted to excel and sucesseed and being on disability is kind of like failing...being a failure as an adult.

[ExistingInChanges]

Originally Posted by Useless Me

appreciate the advice...........................

i guess i would do better if i would just STFU.

sorry.

I get what you meant. It would be easier in ways to be on disability, but it isn't enough money. Someone else contributes to the household.