[monkeybrains21]

Is it wrong for me to hope a zombie apocalypse or all out war so I can get my fill blood? I'm not talking destroying innocent ppl. I want to be able to kill zombies and when over run and no longer able to survive I'll kill myself. If ppl with me we will have an agreement that in the chance of being overrun with no possibility of survival we all have to die or become zombie. Therefore I take it upon myself to have a bullet for each person, but I want the machete for myself.

[Webgoji]

I guess it would depend on the level of "hope" you have. If it's just a fantasy and nothing more ... heck, that's pretty mild compared to even the stuff I've made into stories.

On the other hand, if you're spending every penny on weapons and building a bunker and sacrificing your relationships to spend time honing your zombie fighting skills, then it's probably not a good thing.

[monkeybrains21]

I wanted to line my basement with lead panels but that's expensive. Weapons are unnecessary to stock up on. I can just go to a hard ware store and pick up axes and machetes when the time comes. I don't like guns their impersonal. Oh and need a sharpening stone since all I have is a knife sharpener which won't get me very far with the machete. I've got plans made for the zombies, all out war is harder since don't know where the battle field exactly will be.

I just want to be the one to kill zombies I know and hate. After that the zombies are bonuses.

[Webgoji]

Originally Posted by monkeybrains21

I just want to be the one to kill zombies I know and hate.

This is what I wondered if we would find. It sounds like there may be more to it than just a fantasy of fighting zombies or something. It sounds like you might have some anger that needs addressed or worse, a few targets. You might want to talk to your therapist in more detail just to be sure.

[monkeybrains21]

She knows if my father were to ever be in my presence it would be the last thing he did. I'm transparent about that with her. It's also y I avoid where he and my mother live and never go to that city except for work but I make it a time I know he won't be out

[monkeybrains21]

We've also talked about the consequences of those actions, I don't like cages. I will never be caged I'll die before I allow that

[yumi]

I've never had the urge to hurt or kill or maim anyone. So, I can't relate to that. I do wish the world were rid of evil though. I wish the world were full of love, kindness and consideration towards each other. I think the downright evil in the world has played a key role on my own illnesses. I have never been able to truly cope with it.