[FluffyMuffins230]

This week I've been feeling alright, but I just want to address something with everyone. For awhile now I've been having bad thoughts and I hate it. It's not really the kind of, 'Oh I'm going to hurt myself or commit suicide'. But it's the kind where you feel like you hate everyone for little things you curse at them and tell them they should go to Hell; but the thought that concerns me is that I want to hurt others, more so the people I know.

Now being in a Catholic family I know what Hell and Heaven are, and I absolutely don't want to go to Hell for the rest of my afterlife and be tortured. I know that most likely if I don't act on it (which I won't) that it may be a less likely chance of it happening but I just want to rid these thoughts.

I know I should do what I enjoy but I find like I don't have the patience nor attention span to do it a lot. I don't think it's my emotions either, well more so that I am growing still and my emotions may be off-balance. I feel like I can't go to my family and parents about it, and that I can only talk to people like my online friends or you guys.

[pegasus]

Hi there, can you share this with a counsellor or someone you trust? It sounds like you could do with talking through your feelings. Anger is a good emotion if it is directed in the right way. No shame in having feelings but it would be good to find out why you feel this way and get to the bottom of it. If you know why then it is easier to cope with. Hugs

[Travelinglady]

Fluffy, I agree with Pegs. When you can, I encourage you to talk to a counselor. I am not one myself, but it sounds like you have a lot of anger that likely comes from abuse. Could that be right?

I had to work through a lot of anger, too. You can be okay.

[FluffyMuffins230]

@Pegasus- Unfortunately I cannot, especially a school consuelor, mainly due to the fact ido not attend public schooling anymore. As for a regular one, well my mom and I would not have any method of transportation, and considering my dad has illnesses we aren't able to leave him alone a lot.

@Travelinglady - Like I said previously I am unable to, due to the reasons explained above. And I am luckily not abused by my parents or any of my family. Thanks for your words.