[Teacake]

I really do. I think my dad was too. Does this make me crazy?

[ThisWayOut]

I think people can have incredible connections with others that we cannot clearly explain.
Does it cause you distress or problems? If not, I would take it as an incredible gift and go with that. If it causes you distress or harm, then maybe do some more testing around it and possibly bring it up in t to address.

[Teacake]

Originally Posted by ThisWayOut

I think people can have incredible connections with others that we cannot clearly explain.
Does it cause you distress or problems? If not, I would take it as an incredible gift and go with that. If it causes you distress or harm, then maybe do some more testing around it and possibly bring it up in t to address.

I cant gate it. prozac lowers dopamine and dopamine gates the oneness. The only add theory that made sense to me when I was dxed and add was new, was that my reticuclar activating system, the brains gatekeeping front desk was faulty. Other people seemed better able to be self centered, to care about their own bellies, and I was always blown away by the gestalt.

As a small child I knew that what happened to any of us happened to sol of us...Specifically I had the image of a little girl in India and o knew I was having her experiences even if my consciousness believed I was only this American girl. Then I became overwhelmed by the parados of being a conscious that belonged to one particular body-ego-self-me and being all things and brings.

Im still that small child. I still dont get boundaries. I get social manners, I mean i dont get how to block the pain of the people who does on mountaintop. I could Jot eat for days. I was not onundated with the news. I didnt know they were without food water until yeatersay. I avoid the news. But I went hungry and thirsty and mourned and didnt know Why.

Also I went off prozac scary premonition and then an urge to hop on cop and get how fun. Scared me ailly. Prior I got on near cr aire and said I feel like I felt before two big shootings. So i uad my pre incident sicjness and I had scary urgesges to get a cop gun. Turned myself into hospital. Got treated like a jerk. But...I had one fleeting trauma moment in 99when i did have to prepare to overpoeered a cop and control his weapon to prevent tragedy. I did. And all this coincidided with the Missouri riots triggered by a man with a similar urge.

The worst for me was.lastyear i dreamed of a spanish speakinf woman shooting children. She was dissocisted. She wasnt aware of doing wrong. It was happening forty miles away as i dreamed it.

When dreams show up in the news I wonder of I was in some sense really there and able to influence events. Perhaps only by saying what I see or by talking to them.

I see how my psychology gave me a "magical superado". Or a premature superego developed in age appropriate magical thinking. But I also see undeniable anomoly.

Dopamine gates it. Keeps me wears of me v not me. Or that which Is this body and that which Is oversoul.

I was shamed for being psychic. You are a nice, normal girl!. Made me feel Iit wasnt noce at all to he abnormal. But who can guess at normal to try to be it. We think our mature Is normal. I five up on normal. I want to salvage.natural.

So...iive learned my lesson about add Is real and I need dopamine and what lowers dopamine not only trashea my ability to organise my lunch and houseikeeping but scatteres me out into the oneness. I lose my tenuous grasp on individual experience and go all oceanic.

I dont know why. Its not gift or disability. I am a receptor that doesnt screen very well without amphetamine. My people were sailors. I understand very welk how my diffuse consciousness was a blessing if you are on a boat for weeks zoning out but need to he able to see and react to the very early signs of a storm.. or stay in touch with your loved ones.

Its a natural human thing and some popations developed it this way and some.developed screens and individualism.

Im just waiting for prozac to wear off so my adderall works again.

[Parley]

Sometimes~ I think I'm crazy but then I realize it's just wishful thinking. Denial...a refusal to accept what's mine.

It looks like your finger's aren't working as quick as your mind.

[-jimi-]

I have no idea where reality ends and delusions start but I am hellbent on that psychic stuff does exist in the real world. I've witnessed so much weirdness in that department. A lot of it is connected to my friend who is very open to everything including what normal people can't see. She has predicted the future so many times it's scary. She never had any delusions but she is very careful telling people things she knows that she "can't know".