[BubonicPlague]

I have now just thought back on what I've been feeling and thinking.
Just today I read an article online "energy vampires" and I read something on "emotional vampires".

It made me think on these thoughts I've been having (fantasies) of me comforting people.

I can see myself hugging or comforting these people (but I don't do this), and their innocence is pleasurable to me.

Now that I think of it, this is just sick and wrong.

And what I've done to talk to my mom about my depression issues. How I haven't been listening to anyone to get help.

Like I've said before, I'm bringing people down. They just don't want to admit that I'm hurting them.

So, should I avoid wanting to be in an intimate relationship? Like I shouldn't be in one?

I guess I shouldn't.

I guess I'll have to be very cautious in what I do to be friends with people. Maybe be reserved?

I just have these sadistic thoughts. It's not like it's doing any good.

[8thstreetbungalow]

Hey man, sorry to read about your concerns and hope you sort things out. This is my opinion, based on the article i just read, it seems if you can think or recognize your behavior to be wrong your most likely not a vampire. Are your traits acceptable? Only you can decide that, I think if you have the ability to know something is wrong, you have the ability to correct and stop it.

As for dating, even if you are a vampire do it anyway. Why suffer alone and make life more stressfull than it already is? All because you are or could be something someone else typically doesn't want around doesn't mean you shouldn't get a proper social life.

Edit: Oh yea i forgot to add, i recognized alot of those "vampire" traits in my own actions. They seem to be common in just about everyone at some point or another.