[aqsam]

Hi

This forum has really helped me in past. I was in sort of a long-distance, fantaysical relationship with someone for like two years. Wasted lots of time and emotions. Also my health was affected. All that ended. I am Ok because I took it in a realistic way.
Now that I get to have lots of free time, I want to resume my activities that I mostly love to do. I want to continue studying while doing my job. I like reading novels.

The problem now is that I can not read. I will write what I feel like when I try to read something in following , I hope these points will make someone understand my problem and help me.

* Lets say I want to know what Astrology actually is in short. I will search it on the web. Will click on one or two search results, opening web pages. Now when one page is open in front of me, my mind will start pushing me to leave that page and go to some other because that might contain much easier and better content. This takes away all my concentration. I cannot focus and the result is, usually I end up closing all results and go do something else.

* Same happens when I start reading some novel. My mind will keep me to say race and end it up as soon a possible because its the end of the time.

* I want to know about current affairs, I will open newspaper, will see the headline and my mind will say, Hey that's the same the happens everyday, its not of use, complicated and boring. Go sleep!! I start reading something that looks more fun like Hollywood news and same would happen mostly.

I badly want to start studying literature. To make problem more understandable, shortly about me. I am engineer by profession and doing a decent job. There is a constant load on my mind all the time. Socially, I don't feel easy around people. I belong to middle class family and I feel like I am a case of inferiority complex because especially if I come to know that a person is rich, I feel scared and uneasy. I am scared of people all the time and it badly effects my job as well. When I speak, there is no confidence in my sound.

Please help me because I desperately want to study. I don't wanna waste more time.
Thank You!

[Travelinglady]

Hmm. I'm not sure what to suggest. Perhaps talking to a professional therapist for a few sessions would help get to the root of your problem.

[Angelique67]

Do you think you might have ADHD?

[aqsam]

@ Angelique67 : I have strong doubt I might have ADHD. I went to a general physician but after discussion of like an hour, she told me I was OK. Perhaps I nee to visit some psychiatrist.

[Angelique67]

I haven't been diagnosed but my attention span and focus are very poor. This is new, after coming off benzos. I had it to an extent when I was young but not this bad.

[Lemon Curd]

Definitely talk to a professional.
I see a psychiatrist & therapist.
I suffer from anxiety. My mind races & I fear social gatherings.
I am on medication.
It has helped me tremendously.
The potential of ADHD should be re-discussed, as well, with your doctor.
That's just me.
Take care of yourself.
You're a very special person & have worked hard in your educational pursuits.
You should be very proud of yourself.
*big warm friendship hug*