Inpatient Care?

So, lately, I've REALLY been considering inpatient treatment...
Does anyone have experience with this?
I have depression, GAD, supposed schizophrenia, and very likely BPD.
I have cut. A lot. But I've not cut in over a week, because I promised a friend that I wouldn't cut without calling him, and I really don't want to disturb him. But I want to cut so badly...
I keep trying to make changes and be positive, but it's not working.
I always end up here. I don't want to be here. I hate this.
I have so many emotions that it's maddening; I can barely even tell what they are. I want to cut; I really want to cut. I can't see hope in anything. I can't see anything ever getting better. If I wasn't such a sissy and a coward, I would have already tried to commit suicide. But I am, so I haven't... I don't know what to do.
It would be great to get some feedback about this... Have you been in inpatient care? How did you get there? Did you suggest it to your psychiatrist/psychologist, call a mobile crisis unit (I don't know what they do, anyway...), or something else?
Please, give me feedback.
I really need help. Very badly...
Thanks...

I'm not sure the best ways to get there but it can be helpful for getting stabilized on meds. It's very boring though. They usually keep you for a week.

So I've been inpatient and like Angelique said its focused on meds I got zero therapy outside of music and art for 1 hour a piece in a week. You will likely not want to be there unless you are a fan of daytime TV and want to spend $2000 a day to be locked someplace safe. I got there while actively psychotic I wanted to kill someone....wanting to hurt yourself or others lethally will likely get you involuntary but if you want to get out whenever just mention it to your pdoc or t and see if they can get you in voluntarily or visit a psych ER if you're in crisis.

However, I strongly encourage a vacation instead....cheaper and a lot more fun and relaxing....

If you are a harm to yourself or others is one of the main determining factors.

If your not then usually you can be set up with a pdoc and T to help you manage your symptoms and move forward onto a healthy emotional well being.

I have been Inpatient many times, I was a danger to myself. It's a great place to be if you need to be watch 24/7 and they have the ability of having med changes done much quicker in there than have to make slower changes outpatient.

Stay safe

I'm not sure my experience will be revelant as i'm in the UK - i tried to contribute to a similar thread as this before and got shouted down for providing information that i still think is equally applicable.

Basically, do your research, know clearly what it is you can expect and whether that falls in line with your own expectations. Generally inpatient stays are about stabilization and don't offer much in the way of therapy. But this can still vary - again it depends on where you go, why and how much you pay. If you're feeling unsafe it wouldn't hurt to inquire. If you're already under a healthcare team of sorts can you maybe ask them for advice? They might be able to recommend a few suitable places. Also be mindful of the fact that you can end up becoming involuntary so i would also make sure you settle everything as much as you can before you leave, especially if you don't have many people to rely on outside of a hospital environment.

I hope this is vaguely useful. I'm sure other members here will have more to contribute. Best of luck.

I think my meds are actually working; for now, anyway... About time he got it right! Lol.
But, sometimes, it's just so hard, and I don't know if I can handle it. I mean, I know I'm not going to hurt myself, because I just can't... I'm done with that. I can't do it, anymore. I was in the shower, and I looked at my arm (which is usually covered), and it was just... I can't believe I did this to myself. I can't believe I did this to those around me. I can't believe I let it get that bad... It's terrible... I just want to get better, and I don't know how to do it. Things are so difficult and confusing, right now. I just want to get better... :'(

Your way ahead of the game knowing you want to get better, keep striving for a stronger life and emotionable stabilty ..

Many people decide to have a beautiful tattoo over self harm scars.

Just focus on your recovery

These scars are taking up pretty much my entire forearm... I don't see how they could ever be anything beautiful. They just remind me of the pain.

Tattoos can make a ugly possible shameful thing be a up lifting healing process. You can goggled before and after.

It would be a reallyyy big tattoo, and I'm not really into it, even though it's a pretty great idea.

I discussed inpatient treatment with a nurse that I saw yesterday (since I missed my appointment with the psychiatrist). She explained to me what it was like and how it works and the options that I would have.
After consideration, I think - and so does she - that inpatient treatment is something I should try, at least for a few days...
So, next time, I will call the Mobile Crisis Unit and volunteer to succumb to inpatient treatment.
Maybe, that will help, because the depression is still really bothering me, which is why I'm on Prozac, now, as well.