[inkblot]

What the &*((%#$@#$%^&^*&&(*&(^!* is going on?!?! I think I saw a near full moon last night--that has got to be it. I'm going crazy--in more ways than one. My computer is going crazy--or is it we'ze gone crazy?! I attempt to download the java thing so I can get into chat here on my home computer. The first time it had an unknown error--it just stopped everything and closed the browser at the start of installation. The second time I was on my cell modem and the phone battery ran out during installation so the installation stopped again. My THIRD ATTEMPT I use a new network wireless card and free wi-fi for a faster download and it crashes--stops responding, that is--during the finish installation. Almost there!!! So I head for home last night and while thinking about it all in the car (I was a little p.o.'d at my laptop), my chest started hurting more and at one point for a few seconds it was pretty bad. After I got home, I pull out my cell modem and hook up the phone and dial-up. The call goes through and well, I thought I was connected. I was online, yet I wasn't. My little computer was confused. It thought I was online, but it couldn't find the access. Meanwhile, I was getting more frustrated. Now today, I try again with dial-up, just in case and being overly optimistic, and still the same. I go back to the library because the wi-fi worked there. My computer stopped responding or crashed every time I rebooted. Too many times to count. I am NOT in a good mood. I wasn't in a good mood before, which doesn't help any. It's been one month since what my new neighbor did, and all the emotions are coming back. Plus with no job and little money and rent due and I have to talk to the landlord about a letter....blah, blah, blah, it never ends. You don't want to know what thought just came to my head. DocJohn wouldn't like it either if I posted it. I guarantee this thread would be instantly locked and I'd have a nasty little email or something from him telling me to basically shut up. Okay, so he'd be nice about it, but firm. He's not that way to be mean about anything. I'm just very frustrated with everything in this life. I'd really love to have my own private little corner to work on the computer here so I wouldn't have all these people around. I'm angry, I'm depressed, throw in a little PTSD and eating disorder. Yeah, it's a wonderful life. Not. I better stop this before my chest starts hurting bad again like it did last night in the car. At least it was only a few seconds.

[dexter]

hi ink

last night was a grrrrrr night for me too . hopefully it will get better. i know how frustrating computer problems can be especially when the internet provides a bit of a coping mechanism for us and we can't get on. hope your laptop will get back on the ball... or that you or someone around can look into straightening it out.

has the neighbor at least stopped bothering you? i hope with time you will be able to put that behind you. in the meantime it is rough i know. i had pains in my chest last night too and again this morning, not sure what to make of it yet.

anyway hope tonight is a better night for you. (and me)

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[Fuzzybear]

I hope the grrrrr's get better soon! (as you saw I have been having a grrrrr day too ...) ((((((((((((((ink))))))))))))))

Take care,
Fuzzy xx

[inkblot]

Looks like several of us are having a "GRRRRRRR" day. Doc better watch out in chat tonight if we all show up. I'm going to make a post or two more and check out the blog. Then I'm heading to McD's or someplace for a shake. I could really use some ice cream right now. That will probably be my dinner, too.

[inkblot]

I think that I might need some M&M's with that shake. Chocolate sounds good, too. Now do I get a McFlurry, or just get the shake and go to the store to buy the M&M's?

[Fuzzybear]

I've been eating a Cadbury bar. What is a McFlurry?

[heatherm]

Hey Fuzzy.....a McFlurry is from McDonald's.....the same as a Blizzard from Dairy Queen....whipped ice cream with chunks of chocolate bars in it.

mmmmmm Cadbury.....they are my favorite. I still wonder how they get the caramilk inside it .


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