[horsemen]

I'm not sure if there's a better place for this, but I've asked around and have never gotten a good answer. I am honestly too awkward and scared to tell my parents, and too terrified to go to the doctors. I'd rather get some answers online, and if I need or really want to, I'll go to the doctor.

For a long time, I have felt this way. My whole personality would change. Not my mood, that would usually stay the same. But I mean the way I think, act, behave, talk changes. I feel like a different person, but I'm still me on the outside. I don't know how to explain. I feel like a different person but also the same, at the same time. I don't dissociate, I am still aware of everything. My memories seem fake, so I don't fully trust them, but I don't think that's because the personality thing. For example: One hour, I'm super happy and caring and I hate when others hurt others, that kind of thing. The next, I'm still happy but I couldn't care if others hurt others. I walk differently. I talk differently. I behave differently. I like different things. And when I do this, I feel a slight emptiness. I don't know what this is? I've asked a few people I know with mental disorders or who know a thing or two, but they couldn't think of anything.

[Ripose]

I hesitate to say what this could be but it really sounds like something a doctor or therapist should help you with. So far it does not sound like anything too serious but it could easily grow to become quite problematic so if you saw someone about it now you could possibly save yourself a lot of grief in the future. Not many of us here at PC ever had that chance and look where we are now.

It is very unusual for me to recommend seeing a doctor or therapist with out offering some type of advice first but I would just like you to have the chance to nip this in the bud before it develops into something worse and long lasting.

[horsemen]

I would go to a psychiatrist, but I'm too terrified to tell my parents, in fear of them thinking I'm lying or making things up. My mother has Bipolar Depression I believe, but this is a little much to come out and tell them.

It seems like DID, but I don't black out or have memory loss I just full on change personalities. I've asked so many people, but no one has helped or been able to. I'll probably eventually tell my parents, but I honestly have no one to talk with about it.

[-jimi-]

I've also wondered what it is and asked several times on here. And no, it is not DID which is a totally different thing.

I've never been traumatized, I think I was born like this. I don't think it has a name. Maybe with a shoehorn you can squeeze it into the term dissociation. But IMO it does not fit there.