[BubonicPlague]

I have had so much **** happen to me recently.

Two ****ing break ups, my last one was the best. I thought it would work out, but he just up and left me.

I've been getting ****ed over for these past few months, no one would want to be in a relationship with me, just all for sex.

Sex, Love, and Beauty are sacred to me because of my spirituality. Sex just isn't special to me anymore and I'm about ready to give up on Love because everyone just wants to **** me over. I ****ing hate this.

I've become so emotionally disconnected and numb after my second break up. He pretty much ruined it for me.

Other than that I've changed. I reverted back to my old interests when I was younger. (You can see it on my profile.) I have found myself again, and I like who I am.

I have been doing things for myself and taking a break. I've been doing a ton of shopping buying black clothes (that are based off of my philosophy) and making myself more beautiful. I love my looks, I am OBSESSED with my beauty to the point that I've become vain. I do care for people though, but I give out to much love and they don't return it.

I often feel lonely a lot of the time, but I always have fashion that makes me feel better...and cats...and my spirituality (oh by the way don't talk to me about spirituality on my post please, I don't want this to be locked or taken down).

I just haven't been feeling myself lately. I hate it so much