[defyinggravity65]

I made a long, drawn out post about this recently but I'm going to post about what I'm going through in a more general way in the hope that it will help you guys with giving feedback!
I am really struggling now with severe anxiety and OCD over episodes of false memories.
Example: Yesterday when I was brushing my hair I had a vague recollection of someone telling me I had a lot of split ends and needed a hair cut. I got a hair cut not too long ago, and don't have any split ends, so I knew it couldn't be true. But it felt like a real memory, like any old regular memory I have.
These experiences can happen to me up to 10 times a day and 99% of the time are just about little things like the example above that don't really matter too much. The memories just pop into my mind and usually I am able to know right away if they happened or not, but a few I don't know about
Like I said, it causes me A LOT of anxiety when this happens, and the more I worry about it, the more it happens. Sometimes my compulsions will take over and I will spend hours trying to find ways to validate if a memory I'm struggling with is true, which makes me feel even worse. There was one where I had recalled seeing the inside of a burning house and it felt like I was remembering a scene in a video game or movie. I watched a bunch of movies and went through a lot of video games looking for a scene that it could have been and never found anything, but felt crazier knowing that I spent hours trying to "prove" the memory one way or another, when it could have been something from a dream or even just a random thought.
I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me, because I usually have always had a good memory. I feel so much anxiety when I get one of these "memories", and really don't know how to respond to them besides assuming that a psychotic break is in my near future and just freaking out about it. There is kind of a deja-vu feeling behind these experiences that makes them feel like memories, and I read that deja-vu can be associated with psychosis, as well as general troubles determining what's real vs. what's not.

Does this sound like a type of psychosis? I don't have any other psychotic symptoms that I'm aware of. I'm sitting in my house thinking about this all right now almost frozen in fear.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by defyinggravity65

I made a long, drawn out post about this recently but I'm going to post about what I'm going through in a more general way in the hope that it will help you guys with giving feedback!
I am really struggling now with severe anxiety and OCD over episodes of false memories.
Example: Yesterday when I was brushing my hair I had a vague recollection of someone telling me I had a lot of split ends and needed a hair cut. I got a hair cut not too long ago, and don't have any split ends, so I knew it couldn't be true. But it felt like a real memory, like any old regular memory I have.
These experiences can happen to me up to 10 times a day and 99% of the time are just about little things like the example above that don't really matter too much. The memories just pop into my mind and usually I am able to know right away if they happened or not, but a few I don't know about
Like I said, it causes me A LOT of anxiety when this happens, and the more I worry about it, the more it happens. Sometimes my compulsions will take over and I will spend hours trying to find ways to validate if a memory I'm struggling with is true, which makes me feel even worse. There was one where I had recalled seeing the inside of a burning house and it felt like I was remembering a scene in a video game or movie. I watched a bunch of movies and went through a lot of video games looking for a scene that it could have been and never found anything, but felt crazier knowing that I spent hours trying to "prove" the memory one way or another, when it could have been something from a dream or even just a random thought.
I feel like my mind is playing tricks on me, because I usually have always had a good memory. I feel so much anxiety when I get one of these "memories", and really don't know how to respond to them besides assuming that a psychotic break is in my near future and just freaking out about it. There is kind of a deja-vu feeling behind these experiences that makes them feel like memories, and I read that deja-vu can be associated with psychosis, as well as general troubles determining what's real vs. what's not.

Does this sound like a type of psychosis? I don't have any other psychotic symptoms that I'm aware of. I'm sitting in my house thinking about this all right now almost frozen in fear.

in me my own treatment providers call this having hallucinations and delusional thoughts not false memories.

my suggestion is contact your treatment providers. we cant diagnose what this is in you, only your own treatment providers can do that.

what I can say is what you posted does happen for some people with your existing diagnosis's you have listed in your profile.

[bebogirl16]

I have experienced some moments of a deja-vu every now and then, that tend to get me a little anxious.

Or when I close my eyes, sometimes a random persons face will pop up. A complete stranger, but I see their entire face. This has been happening ever since I can remember. But not all the time.

Have you talked to your Doctor or a Therapist about any of this?

[defyinggravity65]

Yes. They aren't concerned. I'm very concerned though, which is why I thought I'd just reach out on here and see if anyone has any opinions.

[amandalouise]

Originally Posted by defyinggravity65

Yes. They aren't concerned. I'm very concerned though, which is why I thought I'd just reach out on here and see if anyone has any opinions.

here in my location we have a saying...if it concerns you its worth discussing, figuring out and taking care of. maybe you can print off your posts and take in to your treatment providers. this way they will not only hear you in words but hear you in writing too, and help you take care of this problem.