[kaynaya001]

I'm sorry that this is really long. I'm sorry that I exist.
I've always been sorry for everything in my life.
I have always had issues with men. I think that is the source of my problems.

I made this mistake a long time ago of playing a prank, it went too far. Leaving them in the dark about why it happened, and if I meant it. IT was in response to their organized harassment of livejournal girls through the internet. I really didn't take it seriously because i never took the internet seriously. I copied all these jokes from a dudes forum to my girly forum.

Naturally now I feel like a satan spawn for moving on with my life... I think they didn't know how to respond and neither did I. But it reminds me of twitter. How you'll get death threats for making a joke online.. I guess I don't know why I'm even writing this post, I know why it happens, but for some reason, it always sucks me in? I'm not saying I'm perfect, or that I wasn't ever misguided by experience as a child. I had really awful skeletons to hide. I was a really disturbed child. But my main focus is god, and spirituality, and all i want is light in my life i do not EVER want to go back to any kind of dark ****. I'm tired to death of dark ****..

Its just that gender relations seem so shrouded in hazy ambiguity, that no one wants to talk about. Also, some men think we're crazy because we don't lash out as hatefully as those extreme men do. But why SHOULD I?

For example. I write. And they blackmail me for that, saying its murdering them if I write. We're talking about narcissists. How do I just focus on god ? When I'm constantly bombarded by extremism of this kind?

Everytime I try to go back to focusing on god, and peace, and harmony, and doing the best I can at what i know I can, this background noise starts sounding like this "She's living selfishly, for going on to write or whatever, its a death sentence" But girls never have these extreme reactions to men.

We don't stalk men in an organized way. Which is why its completely despicable to me. No I guess I'll never be able to sympathize with that.

For the record I know that game, I was psychologically terrorized and gamed by my own gaurdian, and I know how it works. I know that if there's ever anything in my life, its not going to be that kind of egocentric overkill terrorizing. Why do we have to be bombarded with this no matter how benignly we act towards men? Why is that benign peace so satanic to some guys in my life? Is it BECAUSE I'm idiotically permissive that this **** happens ?

[Quarter life]

I'm assuming that you are speaking of online forums and sites that you are a member of….Often peoples responses in online forums can be hurtful and rude because of anonymity.

My suggestion is for you to be more selective on which sites you sign up with…ensuring that the sites are moderated and members kept safe. Also real life clubs and social groups might be something you could look at…..there are good people in the world, but we should always tread carefully.

Be kind to yourself kayna

[-jimi-]

Originally Posted by Quarter life

My suggestion is for you to be more selective on which sites you sign up with…ensuring that the sites are moderated and members kept safe.

No forum is safe. Narcissists and psychopaths dwell everywhere, con mods and turn people against each other, and break decade long friendships. It's not the type of forum that does it. You just need to learn to identify the evil ones and deal with them accordingly. I ignored the one that wanted me dead, and it was the worst I could have done. It triggered her to the point of weaving such lies about me that I lost friends I never thought I'd lose. Taking away the support at the moment I needed it the most.

Those people know when to do the worst damage and if you happen to die, they are happy. It's really sick but we MUST realize these people are among us and we meet them EVERY DAY.

Horrible experiences, you guys. I'm sorry. ^

Try not to offend any one, and not to disclose information that might be used against you. Caution is required in this world, whether the virtual or the real one. Assuming the best in people before knowing their intentions is probably not the best idea.

[CaptainChaos79]

I know how I would deal with this if it were solely on an online level...I would turn the pranking factor up about 5000% then start singing a chorus of How do you like me now *****es...however if you know where these people live...here's a word of advice...getting even is for underachievers. Don't just get even, get so far ahead you can see their taillights cause you are about to pass them yet again. Don't just stoop to their level, stoop so low they will never wanna fk w you ever again...repent later...you gotta save yourself screw them...

[CaptainChaos79]

Originally Posted by CaptainChaos79

I know how I would deal with this if it were solely on an online level...I would turn the pranking factor up about 5000% then start singing a chorus of How do you like me now *****es...however if you know where these people live...here's a word of advice...getting even is for underachievers. Don't just get even, get so far ahead you can see their taillights cause you are about to pass them yet again. Don't just stoop to their level, stoop so low they will never wanna fk w you ever again...repent later...you gotta save yourself screw them...

Disclaimer: As a general rule I know this is bad advice, but with narcissitic buttholes and certain other types sometimes this is good advice....