Did you admit you had a mental health problem?

I was trying to cope with my mental health illness when the symptoms first started effecting my daily living. I couldn't wait until it went away. It never did though so after about 3 months I finally talked to a doctor about it. I wonder how many people go get help right away or hope it goes away?

This is complicated for me. In retrospect, I was struggling with mental health issues before I even would have been able to spell mental health. I always hoped / assumed I could beat it. And I managed to struggle along in denial & in hiding for 5 decades before it all began to unravel. I even intentionally put myself into employment situations that inflamed my m. h. issues thinking that this would cure me... sort-of a "sink-or-swim" strategy, I guess you'd say. (I didn't work.)

Nowadays, I don't really have any overt mental health issues. I just keep to myself, I have no desires, no goals. I simply live from one day to the next. If I wake up in the morning, I go about doing what needs to be done. I simply don't allow myself to even consider the possibility that it could be any different. (I've always been pretty good at that.) From that vantage point, it's easy to forget, or perhaps overlook, all of the secret insanity of my life & to imagine I've always been pretty-much normal. But all I have to do is to look back over all that has gone on since before I was even old enough to "know better". And then I realize how warped I have actually always been. Thanks for your post. I benefitted from replying to it.

I admit i have a problem, still I insist I will help myself the best. I help myself. I apply many many coping methods and try to live well.

Maybe i am not impartial... but oh well.

I hoped it would "go away"

I hoped it would go away but after a couple of months I realized that I wasn't getting better on my own so I went to the doctor.

There was never any doubt in my mind that I have a mental health problem(s). I remember being depressed and anxious when I was four years old. By the time I was 8 the problems were out of control. I'm now 54, so.....