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I have never been so absolutely enraged before in my life. For the past two days I've been physically ill with it. My head hurts, I can't sleep, I'm shaking. The first day of this, my left arm started hurting. I know I wasn't having a heart attack, but still...

But I have to rant about what's got me all tied up like this. I'm so SO damn sick of stuck up people, almost always from either New York or California (but mostly New York) coming to my home and the surrounding areas. They think they're the most wonderful people that God has graced this planet with and they know they're so much better than us hicks who live here, I suppose. And then, they buy up all of our stuff and gentrify the hell out of it. I know all NYers aren't like that, but 9 times out of 10, the people who do this are from up there. Our neighbors from across the street (who are supposedly my mom's friends) just bought out the house we've been renting for years. It wasn't for sale and they didn't breathe not ONE word about it. So much for friends, huh? I'm pissed at our landlords too, particularly since my mom already mentioned before that she would like to rent to own if they ever did decide to sell. Its just the fact that that snake and her husband were sneaking around without saying anything? And that we heard it from our landlords and not them, even though my mom has been over at their house plenty of times. The witch's excuse was "oh, it moved so fast, we didn't have a chance to say anything about it!" Yeah right. I already didn't like her because of the off handed things she would say and her low key snootiness, anyway. I can see right through what those trash serpents were trying to do. And there's nothing we can do about it except hope they don't price our house out of our range. It pisses me off even more that my mom will probably still be trotting over there trying be friends with that devil. I'm tired of watching the city near us being dried up of its local culture by people like those sorry excuse neighbors. And they keep creeping closer and closer to the small towns, like mine. Its all condos, cracker box mini mansions and chain stores. I'm tired of these people. GO HOME. If New York is the greatest place on earth, then why do they keep coming here taking and taking and taking??? What is this? Modern Manifest Destiny? And they pretend to be so liberal and socially aware while snagging everything from the poor. Taking advantage of black neighborhoods, hell ALL the local neighborhoods. Patting themselves on the back while making everything too expensive for the people who have lived there for years.

As for me, this is just the icing on the cake. I am so beyond tired of always either being taken advantage of and having my life constantly affected by other people, regardless of where they're from. It makes me so angry. I constantly feel so powerless. I'm even scared of getting help for my OCD, depression, and whatever else this stuff is because every time someone shoots someone, "oh, those crazy people are a problem!" I'm literally afraid of having my rights taken away one day.

I'm sorry this got so ranty and again, I know not all people from New York and California are like this. But I can't stop thinking about it. I can't stop getting mad and feeling sick. I just need help so I can sleep! Atleast, let me sleep X(

[*Laurie*]

Well, I'm a born and raised Californian and I wouldn't live anywhere else but this gorgeous, amazing state. So I promise I won't be buying up your land.

I agree with you: your anger is unhealthy. Please stop, you're ruining The Waltons for me

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Lol, well thank you.
I just don't like it when people look down their noses at us like we're less than because we're not from those places.
And that's the thing, I don't know how to get rid of it. It'll go away and then something reminds me of it and it makes me angry all over again XI

[*Laurie*]

Which state are you in?

[obscurity]

I'll message you.