This will be my last post for awhile because I'm taking another extended break from PC. My break won't be as long as last time's year long break, but it will be at least 1-2 months long.

Simply put, I am not in the right mental state to benefit from PC at this time as I clearly don't want to put in the work to get better nor do I want to listen to other people on here because as far as I'm concerned, I know everything and nobody here understands what kind of hell it is to live inside of my head.

So I am testing my theory that so many people tell me is wrong about having money being key to building better relationships and having a happier life. I was given an oppertunity by one of my former associates to make at least a few grand in the next couple of weeks working on some appliances and electronics so if all goes as planned I should have some money to invest on some barely-legal online business ventures and rake in several grand a month off of them since I am done trying to live an honest living and instead I am going to walk what I call the "shadowed path";. Simply put, as long as I am not doing anything outright illegal then I don't give a damn about who might be affected by my actions.

If all goes according to my master plan I will have women fawning over me and people respect me finally. I will simply endure being lonely for just a little while longer then I will never suffer again.

Depending on the result of my little experiment, I will adapt my treatment plan accordingly which will in turn, dictate what I will use PC for in benefit to my treatment.

Special thanks to the few people that have actually went out of their way for me here.

I am off to take control of my life.

Later.

take care.

(((((hugs)))

[shezbut]

Be careful ~ best wishes to you.

[eskielover]

Money may attract but REAL personality either keeps or drives away people after they are attracted. Good luck with what you think life is all about

Meh, looks like I need PC after all. I made far less money off this little "venture" of mine and I am stuck back where I started. Also I might have lost one of the few friends that I had left over a dispute over money from this whole ordeal so I am going to try to at least do things the right way for once in my life.

I've also come to the realization that it's not so much money that will make me happy it is having a stable income (which I still don't have), being able to do things that I am passionate about, and having the ability to take care of myself.

So yeah, I will probably be in the career and communication forums for awhile while I try to get over my insecurities and social issues and find a stable source of income.

Maybe if I can get some stability in my life I can at least find out more about myself and my issues and form a solid plan from there.

[Artchic528]

I'm sorry you have been struggling. However, respect is something you earn from others, and not given upon demand. Same with love. You can't make someone love you, no matter how hard you try.

Again, I'm sorry you're in a deep depressive shytehole, but trust me, you can climb out of it.

Originally Posted by Artchic528

I'm sorry you have been struggling. However, respect is something you earn from others, and not given upon demand. Same with love. You can't make someone love you, no matter how hard you try.

Again, I'm sorry you're in a deep depressive shytehole, but trust me, you can climb out of it.

You're right on the respect and love part. Thankfully, I stopped caring about earning other people's respect in the real world and I stopped caring about intimacy with humans. I would rather just play online team based video games where people actually do respect me for my skill as a player and avoid dealing with the real world as much as possible.

Still though, I have to pay the bills somehow or I would be content with just playing wow and heroes of the storm all day haha