[makenziedoesntexist]

So basically i have this thing I've done since I could talk where basically I talk to a person that's not there but to me the person is there. during the time it takes place (anytime I'm alone or sometimes i do it quietly in public) I fully believe the person/people/situation is real and then I look back and realize that there couldn't have been anyone else in the room with me/I've never met the person I was talking to. sometimes I black out after these conversations and wake up confused and anxious. Also sometimes during the conversations i get into arguments with the person and the person slaps me which means I slap myself. I'm not aware of my surroundings sometimes and I always forget the conversations, only remembering a basic overview of what happened. these conversations/situations can be anything ranging from being friends/in a relationship with my favorite idols, youtubers, celebrities, etc from being in a movie/tv show I like to being in a completely made up universe. I form actual relationships over a real-life period of time with the people I'm talking to. it's pretty much like meeting a new person irl except i'm the only one who knows that the people exist. these people follow me around everywhere and watch my every move and are sometimes very distracting because they try to talk to me when I'm busy. I've read so many other posts about talking to yourself and they say its normal but the other posts don't go to the same extent as mine. i tell the people I talk to everything and they tell me everything about them. they all have different stories, backgrounds, interests, and personalities. Eujin for example is really tan, tall, and kind. he's like my big brother. he's the newest that has appeared in my entourage. even though we just met he is one of my closest friends. he protects me from some of the other people I talk to often such as Hayes. Hayes always tries to hurt me and everytime we talk he hits me. I have bruises from him. I realize he has to be made up because I've never met anyone names Hayes or Eujin for that matter but I have bruises all over my body from Hayes. They feel so real but I realize that there can't be 2 19 year old guys in my room consistently at 2:00 in the morning. I told my therapist as much as I could manage to get out without completely shutting down which wasn't much. she is convinced that I'm talking to myself and no one else but really I'm talking to many different people constantly all the time. does anyone else do this or know why I do this?

I talk to myself, but I don't establish characters with which to do so. This is disconcerting. It is one thing to rehearse impending conversations in our head or criticize ourselves. It is another matter to have conjured up make believe persons. Of what I am sure about is that you are not alone here. My recommendation is to seek out your psychiatrist and be honest about the degree to which this is happening.

I encourage you to ask yourself the same question from the point of view of another. What advice would you give someone else who is experiencing this?

Originally Posted by makenziedoesntexist

So basically i have this thing I've done since I could talk where basically I talk to a person that's not there but to me the person is there. during the time it takes place (anytime I'm alone or sometimes i do it quietly in public) I fully believe the person/people/situation is real and then I look back and realize that there couldn't have been anyone else in the room with me/I've never met the person I was talking to. sometimes I black out after these conversations and wake up confused and anxious. Also sometimes during the conversations i get into arguments with the person and the person slaps me which means I slap myself. I'm not aware of my surroundings sometimes and I always forget the conversations, only remembering a basic overview of what happened. these conversations/situations can be anything ranging from being friends/in a relationship with my favorite idols, youtubers, celebrities, etc from being in a movie/tv show I like to being in a completely made up universe. I form actual relationships over a real-life period of time with the people I'm talking to. it's pretty much like meeting a new person irl except i'm the only one who knows that the people exist. these people follow me around everywhere and watch my every move and are sometimes very distracting because they try to talk to me when I'm busy. I've read so many other posts about talking to yourself and they say its normal but the other posts don't go to the same extent as mine. i tell the people I talk to everything and they tell me everything about them. they all have different stories, backgrounds, interests, and personalities. Eujin for example is really tan, tall, and kind. he's like my big brother. he's the newest that has appeared in my entourage. even though we just met he is one of my closest friends. he protects me from some of the other people I talk to often such as Hayes. Hayes always tries to hurt me and everytime we talk he hits me. I have bruises from him. I realize he has to be made up because I've never met anyone names Hayes or Eujin for that matter but I have bruises all over my body from Hayes. They feel so real but I realize that there can't be 2 19 year old guys in my room consistently at 2:00 in the morning. I told my therapist as much as I could manage to get out without completely shutting down which wasn't much. she is convinced that I'm talking to myself and no one else but really I'm talking to many different people constantly all the time. does anyone else do this or know why I do this?

I agree with what's been said below, you should seek help for this.

their are so many reasons why this could be happening, and none of us here at PC are here to diagnose, just offer advice.

out of pure curiosity, what are your current diagnoses?

may shed some light..?

to expand on what I said about many reasons, I do it because

I helusinate people in the room that arn't actually their.

I sometimes believe 1 of my abusers (or someone I don't like), is in the room and I can hear their voice so talk to them

I am also D.I.D, so talk to other parts of myself.

[MickeyCheeky]

Yes, I agree with the others.. talk to your psychiatrist as soon as you can.

[Sunflower123]

If you can, continue to talk to your therapist about this. It would also be helpful to be evaluated by a psychiatrist. Good luck and best wishes.

[ebonileigh]

Yes, I totally agree with the responses, therapy and psychiatry are very different, hey, I'm no expert not by any stretch of the imagination, just a weary old traveller in this world.......I would strongly advise you to get a psychiatric evaluation, especially since you are being battered and bruised in these dealings with other beings