On Monday, I logged into psych central and freaked out completely. We had a new member, who I think was just a visitor with a name my abuser used to use (his name turned backwards)this is how he signed cards to my mum, and the year I put a complete stop to the abuse.....

I panicked, was triggered and pmed Doc John to terminate my old account. I wanted all my posts made anonymous. It isn't really working out as my old posts have my name on them still and my style of writing didn't fool anyone. I felt horrible all week, knowing I was speaking to friends I've know n for a long time and they didn't know it was me. I apologise, but I had to look after myself, the chances of it being him, or my mother who knows I come on here and my old name are slim, but no one knows where he is...I just panicked, but like my t said, he wouldn't come here under a name people know him by. Like I said, I am so sorry, I just panicked and had such a bad day, I'd forgotten aout that name until I signed in on Monday - So now you all know METIME is JINNYANN. Some know already cos they guessed. I hate my new name, so it may be confusing when I sign my name Jinny, I felt so out of place this week, like I couldn't say what I wanted, it's horrible.

Jinny xxxxxxxx there, I can use my kisses again. Sorry if people think I've been dishonest, but I had to do it for my own peace of mind........

I'm sure friends will understand.

Thanks

[Zorah]

{{{{{Jinny}}}}} Take great care of yourself

thankyou for being so understanding Zorah, LOVE YOU!!!!! Jinny xx This has always been my safe place and I'm not being someone else because of fears caused by him or her. I am Jinny and that's that.

hugs Jin xoxoxoxoxoxoxo

[pegasus]

Jinny, it's very good to see you, and it's ok to keep yourself safe ya know.

If you are not happy with your new name you can send a note to admin asking if you can change it, without terminating your account.

I want to be Jinny again, jinny is a special name to me.Sometimes I'm so dumb and impulsive and panic too much.

xoxoxoxoxo

[pyewacket]

Jinny,

hun, what you did in reaction to seeing that name is really completely understandable. There is absolutely nothing wrong with feeling the need to protect yourself, and actually following through with it, if anything,that in itself took guts.

Glad you are ok, and still here, whether jinny or metime, your still you.

welcome back.

(((((((((jinny)))))))))))

pyewacket

thankyou so much for understanding, I asked if I could change my name back. I am not happy with metime at all, I am Jinnyann. Sorry for all the fuss, I just panicked. And I can't spell either lol

Jinnyannxxxxxx

[DePressMe]

Its all okay jinny...we are here to support you. Hopefully, you can put this behind you and move on...I am not, in any way whatsoever, minimizing it. I know it has been extremely difficult to deal with. I just want you to come back with us and be okay with what happened. Anyway, I am here for you....

[Fuzzybear]

Jinny!!! It's ok, I understand and I think most people will too!! ((((((((((((( jinny ))))))))))))))

Welcome back!!

[eskielover]

Jinny,

I can completely understand what you went through. There is nothing more horrible than thinking that a horrible person from your past has found their way back into your life.

I know that having my Mother under an alias in the hospital to protect her from the home care person was scarry & then having them find her anyway & trying to find another alias & trying to hide her....I can completely understand your action for protecting yourself.

That was a very responsible thing you did for yourself. There is no reason to take chances with people like that because one never knows what they might do & thinking like you did could have actually protected you.....& that's the most important thing to do in your life.

You are cared for no matter if you are metime or Jinny......just feel ok...that's the most important thing,
Debbie

thankyou so much, I'm so relieved to be out in the open, I hated lying.

so good to have our jinny back..love ya girl

[_Hope_]

jinny i am glad you are back, i love reading your posts. I completely understand reactiong the way you did, It was out of selfpreservation, no need to appologise to me

Linda

[chalmette70043]

((((((((((Jinny)))))))))))))

I'm glad your back.

love ya,
chalmette

no need to apologize, its not like you were doing it to be mean or just to deceive. It was a necesary action to protect yourself at the time.

[I_WMD]

So Cool Jin ,,,, We can dance in that place where others sit and clank glasses while we glide across the floor through the room and knock a few back when we just want to sit ...... or sit in the sand at our place down by the surf ...... Oh and next time the tide comes in and sweeps my shoes out to the ocean <<<< Don't go swimming after them,, those pesky sharks and all hehe !!!

thankyou everyone, I'm so lucky to have you all here for me and my rantings and ravings, thankyou for putting up with me

Jinny xx

[DocClyde]

(((Jinny)))

[pegasus]

Yay! You got your name!

(((((((( jinnyann ))))))))))

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