The Problem

I am dealing with enormous amounts of stress, and it's like an unmaintained car - it can drive on and on until it starts to let out smoke, functions more poorly and could eventually blow up
I pray with all my heart and determination for it to not happen, but I just can't function - I can't study well, can't eat well, unwell about too many things, uncompromising about many things, can't move on from things because of idealism

I deal with conflicting feelings towards my crush - pain, feelings, fear, love, hate, anger, hope, purpose. If I had love from her, I'd rise to heaven and be able to take her with me

Here is a link to another recent thread - can't connect everything into organized pieces right now, sorry
https://forums.psychcentral.com/psyc...ike-loser.html