I feel like my life is full of clutter. It is cluttered full of things I don't really want or need: volunteering, classes I sign up for and then am not sure about, idk, I'm sure there's more stuff.

Someone described me as ambivalent. About the things I've signed up for. I keep changing my mind.

I want there to be more "Yes!!!" in my life, and less "I don't know..." and "ugh..."

I decided to stick it out at the nursing home I volunteer at. Then one of my workers tried to talk me out of it. She said she wants me to do something that makes me happy. Can't I do both? I want to keep my commitment, and see if my anxiety fades. That's my choice.

I'm just so confused. When she said that I should "do something that makes your heart sing," I felt annoyed to be honest. I wasn't asking her for advice. I am working on my ****. I don't know. I'm just so confused.

I really hope to get some response here. Maybe that particular worker's words is part of the clutter too. More than anything, her comment just bothered and stressed me out. I know what I want to do. Some stuff, I'm afraid to do. And I need to work through it in therapy. But I'm not there yet.

My worker said I should volunteer with pets / animals. I almost feel like she is projecting her love of animals onto me though. I did say that I'd like to work in a pet store. But she keeps bringing it up. I don't see myself as an animal lover. Not as my identity.

Someone please help me sort through this. I hope it makes sense. Thanks.

Bump. Thanks.