[randomer123]

When I was younger I used to make a lot of stuff up. This started when I was around 5 and went on until I was in my late teens. When I was really young it was silly stuff that was obviously made up to anyone listening, it was obvious this was just a child with a wild imagination. But as I got older I should have grown out of it. As I got older the "stories" got wilder and deeper and I have to wonder where I even got these ideas from.

One thing that was really bad was when I was in middle school and my brother had just started first school. Apparantly there was a very annoying naughty girl in his class and he was complaining about the things she did. It sounded interesting so I joined in and said when I was there she did this, and made up loads of naughty things she did. Obviously this was impossible because she wasn't at first school when I was there, she wouldn't have even been born, or just a baby. But it was fun so I carried on. Then one day my mum heard me and told me off and to stop lying. I had never really seen it as lying but I realised that it was and stopped. There was some other things at school that the teachers told me off about too.

There was something else whern I was in my teens, something about things they had at playgroup but they didn't. Again my mum told me off and told me to stop making things up that never existed. So then I had to stop. Some things did slip out but eventually I stopped saying these things. But I still needed an an outlet for the wild imagination. So in my teens I was mostly making up fake video games. I had a drawing book I drew the cover of the box, a few screenshots, the main characters and even some maps. I also wrote a lot of notes about them. And I suppose some of the imagination came out in those fake people I made up on my forum (I wrote about this a while back when I first joined this site). But after that I felt like I had to supress this "imagination" because it was "lying".

Since then I've had to keep my "imagination" or "lies" in my head, I don't feel that I can do anything with them because whatever I did would be "lying" and I'd get told off. And now I'm far too old to be making stuff up.

I have realised that people who write books must have the same sort of "imagination" but more ordered so they can make interesting stories out of it. I wonder if they were ever told off for "lying" when they were younger or if they handled it differently than I did, in a way that older people wouldn't call "lying".

Now I feel too ashamed and embarrassed to do anything with these "lies" in my head and I seem to have blurred the lines between "imagination" and "lying". I can't tell which it is so I have no choice but to keep it to myself. I can only talk and write about things that are true and have really happened, like all the things I've been writing about on here. But I have outlet for the "lies".

[MickeyCheeky]

It seems like you were only a very imaginative child. I wouldn't feel too guilty about it. I'm sorry you can't "release" your creativity, though... Do you see a therapist?

[randomer123]

Originally Posted by MickeyCheeky

It seems like you were only a very imaginative child. I wouldn't feel too guilty about it. I'm sorry you can't "release" your creativity, though... Do you see a therapist?

Thanks, no I don't see any therapists. I am looking into ways I can do creative things. I'm no good at writing stories, so I'm thinking about drawing, like I did when I was younger. Nobody has to see it so it doesn't really matter how bad the drawing is.