[BlackMedusa]

Hi everyone.

I wonder how many of you are experiencing the same - or have been and were able to solve it somehow.

I'm a single woman in my 40s and I believe I will remain so. I've never had a really long lasting relationship due to my physical intimacy issues. My longest one lasted 5 months, and my last one was 7 years ago. I'm fine with celibacy but what bothers me more is the fact, that I find human body too disgusting to be able to imagine, for example, moving in with someone, share everything or even have sex again. The older one gets, the more disgusting their body gets, that's how I see it. The odors, the sounds, the liquids and all the rest it excretes or emits ... Ugh. I don't find this too disgusting though - my social life doesn't suffer otherwise, I have a few wonderful friends, whom I love very much, I meet people almost every day at my work, I do voluntary work at a retirement home, I attend theater shows, lectures, exhibitions, sports ... to sum up, I have no problem being with other people, as long as the situation remains outside of my most intimate space (or keeps me out of theirs).

I'm a highly sensitive person, but still, I wonder, how would my life turn out if I could be less disgusted by our biology. Do you think it's possible?

Thanks in advance!

Medusa